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Who am I?: Andrew Goh
Also known as...: In order of usage, Andyrooroo, Andy, Andyroo, Anne.
When did I get here?: 26 September 1991
My boring school?: St. Mary's International School For The Horribly Wicked And Devilish. (The last 6 words were made up)
My age?: 16 going on 17
Hey I'm Andrew, your average feather-in-his-cap, spring-in-his-step, sneaker-wearing, tongue-twisting, ecstacy-inducing, mind-bending, never-ending, trend-setting, floppy-fringed whatsisname. Lovable at first sight if you see me in the right light. Always willing to give second chances. And a third if you ask nicely enough. Hopelessly romantic and tragically retarded. Such a combination yields unpredictable results.
Initially shy, softspoken and quiet. Unabashed, witty and loud after the ice has broken. Proud ympacter, God-seeker, salvation-finder, redemption-searcher. I'm not a WANNABE, I'm a GONNABE. Optimist with a pessimistic edge, like a lollipop coated with glass. Always strive to be perfect, very seldom am. Dreams enough to grow a pair of wings. Realistic enough to tear them up.
Swings his moods like a monkey on a rope, but you seldom see the emotions fly. No tears in my eyes don't mean I'm not crying, no red in my eyes don't mean I ain't mad, no smile on my face don't mean I'm not happy, no frown on my brow don't mean I'm not thinking. Music is my drug and art my choice of poison. Performs well under pressure, but won't break under the peer kind.
Don't offer me your cash or flash me a badge, your friendship's good enough for me. Break my trust, watch the sparks fly. Not without forgiveness, but definitely human. Instantaneously horrific, gradually unbearable. Wait for the sky to clear up. It'll happen.
Self-testimony doesn't bring out the best in anyone, especially me. See other's for THEIR impression.
Toodles.
PLEASE DON'T:
Ask me too many questions.
Try to draw out my personal thoughts. Unless invited.
NEVER try to tell me who or what I am. How the hell would you know better than me?
NEVER EVER insult my religion. Please. It's just something you don't do.
NEVER EVER insult my family. People HAVE gotten hurt for making that mistake.
No racism. It tears this world apart and it hurts people.
Ok can everyone please keep any 'emo' comments to themselves. It's not that I care that I'm being labelled as one but gosh I've heard it so many times and frankly, it's getting quite tiresome
Call me Paul Twohill and I break your face. Grr.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
i don't know why but when i heard it i snapped. i know i'm not supposed to but i did. i burned with anger i flared with jealousy. my insides writhed and squirmed and i wanted so badly to plunge my hand in and rip them all out to stop the feeling. i went vacant and distracted for the next hour my legs felt weak i needed to sit down. and when i did my mind just shut down. i would know that i felt warm but i wudnt feel it. i dont why i felt it but i did and i hate the feeling and i hate myself for feeling it. am i dreaming? i hope i am. cos then i can wake up drenched in sweat and wonder what the fuck just happened and then laugh about how stupid i was. how the stupid my dream was. how damn stupid that feeling is that feeling that erupts in the pit of my stomach and engulfs my whole being that feeling which feels like its never going away that feeling which you just want to end so badly. my breath comes out all shaky. my head feels numb. i cant think i cant concentrate i cant do anything. all these flashes just flashes flashes flashes. am i losing it? maybe sleep will make me better. maybe i just need to eat maybe i just need to breathe again. oh by the way i would prefer if you didnt comment on this one ladies and gentlemen. i just want to scream out loud scream at the top of my voice scream like ive never screamed before scream so the whole world can hear me scream till i cant hear myself scream scream till everything fades away scream until its over. and maybe i'll do that right after this. scream until i lose my voice right before i lose my mind. oh hello depression my old friend...
Signed with a flourish 5:59 AM
Dear dear dearest viewers, before you read any further, I just thought I'd point out a few rules that I hope you'll follow while going through this lil' blog of mine. You wanna listen closely now, some of these rules, when broken, are punishable by death.
Haha just kidding
Anyway here are the rules, actually let's just call 'em guidelines. Rules sound too strict for this space. So here are your GUIDLELINES:
1) Numero uno - Please do respect whatever I've written here. Whatever I post on this blog has a reason behind it and does actually mean something to me. So I just ask that you show a little respect.
2) Mind your manners please! This really actually applies to your LIFE as well. Be polite :)
3) Leading on from point 2, I do not tolerate any forms of discrimination; be it racial, sexual, whatever it is. It is definitely NOT appreciated here. Take it somewhere else.
4) Maturity is a MUST. Please keep all comments mature! Name-calling goes under 'immature' so if you were planning on doing that, please change your mind right now.
5) In the same way that prejudice and discrimination are absolute no-no's. I have a zero-tolerance policy regarding insults directed towards my friends, family and religion. Please do refrain from making offensive remarks about those subjects.
6) SH! It would be nice if you didn't spread whatever I've posted on here hahaha ;D
That aside, enjoy this blog, no matter how frequently, or rather INfrequently I update it. (I am known to go on unannounced 'breaks') Take care, God bless :)
Yours, ever so sincerely, Andyrooroo
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