Methinks, dear friends, Pandora's Circus is in town!

2008-12-02T05:26:00.001-08:00

ELJAY CONVERT.
RELINK ONEGAISHIMASU
http://andyrooroo.livejournal.com/
SAYONARA BLOGSPOT.

2008-11-03T04:49:00.000-08:00

Hahahahha my posting is so inconsistent that cement looks practically silky. There really isn't much to post about anyway. My life is just a circle. I can't see head or tail or when one thing begins and another ends. It's all starting to look the same. HAhahaha sounds familiar? I know it's an age-old complaint of mine but really, Mr Life, do you wanna get ANY MORE monotonous? So basically it's been a whole lotta school and a whole lotta schoolwork and a whole lotta tired teenage boy. Halloween was a huge let down cause my friends are all too cool or too gangsta to go trick or treating. Maybe next year. And I'll go with the younger kids XD

A MEME. YES.

1. What would you take from your house if you knew it would be flooded tomorrow?
- Everything that can't swim and isn't waterproof.

2. If you could erase anything you ever said to anyone, what would it be?
- Explicit content. I ain't gonna say here.

3. If you're stuck in a room for an hour with a chalkboard, what would you draw on it?
- A hole so I can climb out of the room :D

4. Your theme song is?
- Godfather Theme~!

5. If your life was a movie, what category would it be in?
- Comedy, horror, thriller, tragedy, romance, action, time-waster

6. Something you wish to accomplish before the end of the year:
- GET BACK TO SINGAPORE.

7. How much does it take to make you laugh?
- Not alot. I'm easily tickled ;p

8. How many sheep do you want on your farm?as many as possible.
- As many as I need to count to fall asleep

9. Which Wizard of Oz character are you most like?
- The winged monkeys!

10. You learn through mistakes. What mistakes are you glad you have made?
- I'm glad to have learnt the lessons, but not to have made the mistakes.

11. Would you ever run naked in the rain with your love?
- Hm. If we happen to be stranded on a desert island with no clothes whatsoever and a tiger's chasing us and it happens to be raining, yeah.

12. Do you think giant anacondas really have a purpose on this earth?
- Yeah huh. Good documentaries.

13. Which is worse... 15 pounds underweight or overweight?
- 15 pounds straight to the face from an angry guy.

14. Do you like eating ice cream out of the carton?
- Worst understatement I've ever come across in my life.

15. Do you find it gross to share drinks with family or friends?
- Nope. *hinthint* Share your drinks with me more often please!

16. Does the world revolve around you?
- Nope. And I sure hope not. I'd get dizzy.

17. Is everyone equally important to the world?
- Everyone has his/her place

18. Do some people truly not deserve to live?
- Everyone deserves a chance at life.

19. If the world comes to an end, how do you think it will go?
- Through God's judgment.

20. Will artifical intelligence help better or destroy the world?
- Destroy it. It's ARTIFICIAL intelligence. It's not REAL intelligence. FAKE!

21. How long does it take you to get out of bed in the morning?
- Schoolday, 10-15 mins. Non-schoolday, 2 hours.

22. How important is it for us to find other planets, resources and life?
- We're gonna need to eventually, cause we're multiplying like rabbits down here on earth.

23. What do you think we would use other planets for in the future?
- Living.

24. Do you think emptying our trash, pollution, and waste on the moon is okay?
- Nuh-uh no way.

25. What do you think about california?
- There's some hotel there that some Eagles sang about some time ago.......

26. Is it important for you to always stay close to your family?
- Yeah huh.

27. Why are slasher films entertaining?
- Semi-scientific answer: People very seldom get to satisfy their curiosity about such things through personal experience. Thus, watching ANOTHER do it is an extremely fascinating process.

28. Do you think it would be a good idea if we rebirthed dinosaurs?
- JURASSIC PARK~!

29. What do you think of tennessee?
- Too many 'n's, too many 's's, and too many 'e's.

30. What kind of animal do you think the world could live without?
- Er, disease causing ones.

31. If someone invented glasses that can see through things, would you buy it?
- YES~! That would be awesome!

32. If you were a spider where would you crawl away and live?
- In a glass jar and be experimented on until one day a boy comes along called Peter Parker and I escape and bite the boy! >:D

33. What do you think about pop ups?
- I wish they'd pop OUT

34. Is there a way to get rid of them?
- Of course.

35. Would you prefer to be emotionless, so you didn't have to feel a heartbreak?
- Ew, no. That means you wouldn't be able to feel love in the first place.

36. When you die, and if you become an angel, who will you watch over?
- Everyone who needs it.

37. If you die and become a ghost, would you try to contact your loved ones?
- Perhaps, to tell them I'm ok.

38. Would you want to haunt anyone?
- Naw, move on man.

39. Who?
- MOVE ON MAN.

40. What does everyone live for?
- LIVE FOR LOVE.

41. Are emotions what people want to thrive and live for?
- To each his or her own, I say.

42. Is there a way to solve world hunger that we are ignoring?
- Er, give away more food and do something about crappy governments?

43. What was God's reason for our creation?
- I'm not gonna pretend I know hahaha.

44. What does He expect us to accomplish?
- Love and believe in Him, and get others to do the same ;)

45. What do you think should be added to planes?
- Snakes. (SNAKES ON A PLANE!)

46. How about vending machines?
- Refund money button. (If you get a crappy drink)

47. Do you have a weak stomach for watching animals consume each other?
- Not really, it's part of life.

48. Do you think its important to conserve the rainforest?
- Of course. Save the trees yo.

49. Why do people move to tornado countries when they know the chances of having their homes destroyed is extremely high?
- Low cost of living combined with incredible adrenaline-seeking issues.

50. Will technology move us forward in life or take us back to the beginning?
- Both at the same time, I could start a huge long essay here but I won't

51. I know not what WWIII will be fought with, but WWIV wil be fought with sticks and stones. What do you think of this quote?
- I think peace is a better option.

52. Do you have any quotes of your own that you admire?
- WHY SO SERIOUS

53. If you could go back in time to the dinosaur era, would you take a visit?
- Of course! That would be awesome!

54. Which holiday pretend character do you wish really existed?
- Santa! PRESENTS YO!

55. If leprecauns existed, what would the world be like?
- Greener, more rainbows, more gold, more Irish.

I'm outtie.

2008-10-23T06:14:00.000-07:00

Well the weeks' been treating me fairly well, which is a pleasant change. First there was MONDAY NIGHT of course. What was that, you ask? It was the AVENGED VS BULLET GIG in SHinkiba, and it kicked major ass! Seriously, the best gig I've ever gone to in my life. The blood curse still remains though - I got a nosebleed as a result of a crowdsurfer's foot connecting with my face and I think someone bit my finger O.O One of the best parts though, was that I was TWO FRICKIN METRES FROM THE BANDS. Hahaha incredible positioning. Oh, and not to mention direct eye contact with Matt Tuck and a wave X) Sadly, my position meant that my crowdsurfing session was a short one :( But it doesn't really matter haha. Have to say though, I think Bullet did a much better job live than Avenged did, which was just slightly disappointing.
I was expecting Avenged to OWN, but kudos to Bullet yo.

And then tonight we had a chouu oishii bangohan. Cause one of my mom's friends flew over from Singapore, so we decided to have a niiice sushi dinner before she flies back. I looove the sushi here in Japan. Seriously, eat sushi here once and you'll never wanna eat it anywhere else again. For the more adventurous of you, I recommend trying sea urchin! That stuff is awesomee :3 And no week would be 'lightened' without an easing in homework. I haven't been getting as much over the course of this week, and that's definitely a good thing. A welcome change to the excruciating amounts of work we're normally given.

On the negative side though, my parents are being annoyingly stressy, and I find it harder to keep my cool around them. Really, I wanna just tell them to chill out, but that's gonna get me yelled at even more, so I shall maintain my silence and be content with expressing myself through furious frowns. >:(

2008-10-18T06:13:00.000-07:00

Well I took this of dear RachLee's blog (I ninja LOTS of stuff from her blog no?) And I kinda had to reformat the way it was done, cause I couldn't comment on her livejournal. So I'll just do it here :D

So I'm guessing any references to 'me' or 'I' in the questions is about Rach.

"If you are on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you.I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better! Comment here and repost a blank one on your own journal."

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
Yes, with God.

02) What was your dream growing up?
Haha I wanted to be a pokemon master!

03) What talent do you wish you had?
I wish I was an awesome guitarist!

04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
Something sweet probably :p

05) Favorite vegetable?
Sambal kangkong!

06) What was the last book you read?
The Rattle Bag.

07) What zodiac sign are you?
Chinese Zodiac - Goat.
Star Zodiac - Libra.

08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
I got temporary marker tattoos on my hand all the time.

09) Worst Habit?
Mumbling. I'm one heck of a mumbler.

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
OF COURSE!

11) What is your favorite sport?
Er, sport really isn't my thing..

12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
I can be both. Duality yo.

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
Haha I'd probably be trying to comfort you adn stop you freaking out :p

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
Ugh, moving out of Singapore

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
When I'm really nervous, I instinctively cover up my palms

16) Do you have any pets?
I HAD pets. I had 2 mamsters, Snowball and Serene, 2 mice whose names I can't remember, some fish, a terrapin called Blastoise and the odd lizard or two.

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
I would be extremely happy! :D COME VISIT ME!

18) What was your first impression of me?
"Hmm she's a nice girl" :)

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
Clowns are awesome.

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
Haha I wouldn't mind being a bit skinnier. Or actually, I'd get my acne cleared up ><

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
I can be both, but conscience is more likely. I know you're a good girl though :p

22) What color eyes do you have?
Really dark brown, bordering black.

23) Ever been arrested?
Nope.

24) Bottle or can soda?
It depends on what kind of soda it is.

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
Save it. I don't have anything I really wanna use it on right now.

26) Favorite band to listen to when you're mad?
When I'm mad.... I like Underoath actually. There's of course, the visceral sound of the music, but then there's a positive message behind the songs that eventually calm me down :)

27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
SINGAPORE.

28) Do you believe in ghosts?
I believe in spirits.

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
COMPUTER HAHA. Or something musical.

30) Do you swear a lot?
More than I ought to :(

31) Biggest pet peeve?
Scene kids are high up on my list now.

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
Retarded.

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
Haha yeahh. Sometimes way too much. I can be VERY naive.

34) Favorite and least favorite food?
Ichiban suki wa sushi desyo~! I don't like er.... Veggies.

35) Do you believe in God?
I believe in Him, I love Him and I depend on Him.

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
Just did it no?
:)

2008-10-17T06:48:00.000-07:00

10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:
1) I've got something I really wanna tell you but I don't know how.
2) I hope you get better soon.
3) Let me help.
4) Haha trust me I WANNA come back.
5) You're in too deep. Get out of there.
6) Leave me alone.
7) I desperatel need your help.
8) I can't be comforting you all the time; I need comforting too.
9) You're always in my prayers.
10) I <3 you.

9 things about yourself:
1) My anger is stored in a metaphorical bottle. It will hold for some time, but at one point it WILL overflow.
2) I have confidence issues.
3) My exterior seldom shows in full the constant raging war waging inside me.
4) I do not give up easily.
5) I ain't perfect.
6) I am not a testosterone powerhouse.
7) Me and sports go together like chocolate and garlic.
8) I'm more aural than verbal.
9) A hug is a great cure for any sickness I have.

08 ways to win your heart:
1) Care about me.
2) The small things do count.
3) Be gorgeous (in my eyes)
4) Make me laugh and smile.
5) Be honest.
6) Don't be afraid to open up to me.
7) Understand that I'm not the perfect guy.
8) Be positive.

07 things that cross your mind a lot:
1) I really miss you guys.
2) I really don't wanna be here.
3) *guitarsologuitarsolo*
4) I hate this class
5) I really need to lose some weight.
6) We had homework!?
7) If only you knew..

06 things you do before you fall asleep:
1) Say goodnight to my parents.
2) Brush my teeth.
3) Play on my guitar.
4) Read something.
5) Lie on my back and think about things.
6) Roll over on my side.

05 people who mean a lot:
1) My family (technically, that's already 4, but who cares.)
2) HER.
3) Awesome friends (e.g TAMTAMS, old school friends etc.)
4) Relatives.
5) All the people who've influenced me in a my life.

04 things you're wearing right now:
1) Tee
2) Shorts
3) Boxers
4) Headphones

03 songs that you listen to often (currently):
1) Writing On The Walls - Underoath
2) It's Dangerous Business Walking Out Your Front Door - Underoath
3) Afterlife - Avenged Sevenfold

02 things you want to do before you die:
1) Make things right with God.
2) Tell everyone how much they really mean to me and how much i heart them.

01 confession:
There's something I need to tell you but I don't know if it's the right thing to do.

2008-10-14T05:21:00.001-07:00

Well it's been a while, and I can attribute my absence to the crushing amount of work I've been getting recently. I have no idea what I was complaining about before, the amount of work I was getting then seems like paradise now. Anywho, be glad that I'm back on blogspot again hahaha, taking time off my schedule (consisting largely of art and physics) to update you all on my life.

Anywho, I guess the biggest thing that's gonna happen is I'm going to see Avenged and Bullet on the 20th! Haha so I've been re-listening to their songs and stuff and thinking of ways to sneak my camera into the venue. Haha one the best things though, is that my mom has managed to get me off school early that day, so I can go hurry come back and do my homework, then go to queue chou hayaii at the venue. I wanna get as close to the front as possible ;) I've even gone to the ridiculous lengths of figuring out the fastest route from the train station to the venue to the lockers to the main hall in the venue XD I AM SO PSYCHED FOR IT.

Despite this Avenged/Bullet excitement, little could be done to overcome my recent Underoath obsession. Been listening to them 24/7. It is truly epic stuff. They're live stuff kicks so much ass too, and they look absolutely visceral in live photos. EPIC. Check 'em out. The best thing about them is that they're a Christian band too. Heh. Screamo metalcore Christian music anyone? *Raises hand*.

2008-09-28T05:35:00.000-07:00

Everyone and everything has a time to die, it's all a matter of when.
My great grandma passed away on Sunday 21st September. I never really got close to her cause I was still young and didn't really know how to cherish a relationship with the elderly. But by the time I grew up and understood how to, she had already gone senile. It's a shame and it came as a real shock to me when I heard she had moved on. She had hit 100 years old. When you know someone who's lived that long, you never really expect them to leave; like they're invincible or something. But everyone has their time and that was hers. She managed to stay healthy and watch her family branch out huge, before finally going home, to a place far better than here :) In God may she rest in peace :)

On a happier note, I'm now SEVENTEEN! I'm gonna go with SMOOTH SEVENTEEN, cause noone's said that yet :p Anywho, this time was by far the best birthday celebration I've had in a looong time. Who needs fancy shamncy presents when you got some of your best friends RIGHT NEXT TO YOU to wish you happy birthday and give you a hug? Give me the hugs any day :) Friends are the only presents I need.

On a less happy note, I've been sheared; my fringe brutally chopped off D: And it's school photos soon! GROW HAIR, GROW! D:

2008-09-17T04:21:00.000-07:00

Well I finally decided to get of my ass and update a little bit. It's been an interesting, confusing time. What with new acquaintances, bravado banter, fuji-loads of homework, hushed-up explosions, and heartstrings being pulled left, right and centre. I think I'm putting on weight too :( Sigh, my general feeling at this moment in time is quite simply put, that this place will never be home. I belong in Singapore. However, life here goes on, in its own slow, monotonous way. On a happier note, my brother celebrated his birthday not too long ago :) It's kinda weird seeing my brothers growing up so fast and not having them depending on me so much, but it's cool :) Haha my turn soon! Hmm. I think I owe a few people out there a meme. Here's one of my own concoctions - The Roo-me :D

Rules:
1. Answer as honestly as you can, where honesty is called for.
2. Avoid any non-committal answers like, don’t know, or can’t remember.
3. Make sure you tag 5 people at the end.
4. Enjoy.

1.Well hello there, who are you then?
I’m Andrew, your creator.

2. Any other alias/ nicknames?
Andyrooroo, Rooroo, Roo.

3. Don’t get bored, the first few questions are fairly obligatory and have to be done unfortunately. So where are you living now?
Japan, Tokyo.

4. Do you like it there?
I don’t mind it, but I really rather prefer to be back in Singapore.

5. Name 3 artistes/ musicians that you’re totally digging right now.
The Academy Is...
Black Tide
Killswitch Engage

6. Now 3 that you’re totally loathing right now.
Soulja Boy
Miley Cyrus
Rihanna

7. If you could attain ONE mutant power, what would it be? (NO “ALL-POWER” ALLOWED)
Telepathy yo. I wanna read minds! Bzzt.

8. What are you like when you’re happy?
Bouncy and hyper with an incessant smile on my face. :D

9. What are you like when you’re sad?
Unenergetic and unresponsive. I’ll cry if I’m really sad.

10. What are you like when you’re angry?
Sullen, moody and very VERY easily provoked.

11. What word/ phrase you’re most likely to be caught saying?
WHY SO SERIOUS.

12. What are you most likely to be caught doing?
Daydreaming, guitaring, or doing stuff on my laptop. I ain’t gonna tell the things I DON’T get caught doing :p

13. Are you more of a geek or a sports jock?
I’m GEEK all the way, man.

14. Try typing “Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious” with your nose, heel or elbow
Superfcaqli9frrawqgilikstifc4expiali9dolciopius.

15. As a follow-up to the last question, which was your favourite/ most memorable scene from Mary Poppins? (If you ever watched it when you were a kid.)
The scene where Poppins slides up the banister!

16. As a follow-up to that question, what’s your favourite childhood movie? (Childhood = 8 and below).
TOY STORY YO. To infinity and beyond!

17. Who’s the last person you hugged?
My mommy! :]

FOR THE NEXT 4 QUESTIONS, ANSWER/ COMPLETE THE PHRASE USING ONLY MOVIE QUOTES. REMEBER TO STATE THE MOVIE AT THE END OF YOUR ANSWER.

18. What’s the first thing you say when you wake up?
Good morning starshine! The Earth says hello! – Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

19. What do you think is important in a relationship, both platonic and intimate?
R-E-S-T-E-C-P. – Ali G in Da House

20. What do you do or say to cheer someone up?
LET’S PUT A SMILE ON THAT FACE. – The Dark Knight

21. When the world tries to get me down, I say...
Aaaand theeeeeeeeeeeeeeen? – Dude, Where’s My Car?

FOR THE NEXT 5 QUESTIONS, ANSWER USING ONLY SONG TITLES OR LYRICS. REMEMBER TO STATE THE SONG NAME (IF YOU USED A LYRIC) AND ARTIST AFTER YOUR ANSWER.

22. If at first you don’t succeed...
Burn It Down – Avenged Sevenfold

23. It’s never too late to...
Come and visit your good friend Sweeney – Epiphany, Sweeney Todd OST.

24. If people tell me that my underwear’s showing, I say...
I should be ashamed of this, I’m not – Approach The Bench, The Audition

25. You’re reversing your car into the parking lot, and you somehow manage to run over 20 cats. You say...
We’ve Got A Big Mess On Our Hands – The Academy Is...

26. Luck only gets you so far, the rest depends on...
A mulatto, an albino, a mosquito, my libido – Smells Like Teen Spirit, Nirvana

NOW, THESE QUESTIONS WERE SUBMITTED BY VARIOUS BLOG-READERS (LIKE YOU).

27. Have you ever kissed someone of the same gender?
Yup, and I ain’t ashamed of it :p

28. What’s the craziest thing you’ve ever done?
Er.... Breaking into multi-storey car parks at 3 am in the morning on a skateboard with 3 friends, then setting off the car park alarm :]

29. What would be your last meal on earth?
Hmm... I’m inclined to think it’d be sushi.

30. Where would you bring your first date?
To my bedroom! No not really, we’d probably end up going somewhere where we can have a nice meal and a pleasant stroll afterward.

BACK TO THE NORMAL QUESTIONS.

31. Tell me a Chuck Norris joke. If you don’t know one, look one up on Google.
I’ll tell you more than one! When Chuck Norris does push-ups, he doesn’t push his body up, he pushes the world down! Chuck Norris CAN put Humpty Dumpty back together again!

32. If/ when you have kids, what would you want to name them? (Give one guy name, one girl name. If an explanation is necessary, go ahead)
I might want to call my boy Callum. The girl would be called Sabriel

33. If Voldemort appeared suddenly and transfigured you into an animal based on your appearance, personality and habits, what animal would you be? (Plus explanation. Voldemort will change you back later.)
Hm. Maybe a hedgehog. I’m shy and can get very defensive. On the other hand, I can be very friendly and cuddly too :p (Change me back now please.)

34. If you were a member of the opposite gender for a day, what would you do?
Interact with lots of different people and find out how a girl actually thinks!

35. Now, if you could date one celebrity out there (from movies, TV shows, music industry etc.), who would it be?
Hayley Williams from Paramore :3

36. Same question, but with a fictional character (from books, movies etc.)
This girl from a book called Sonea.

37. What’s your absolute favourite movie of all time?
At the moment, it’s THE DARK KNIGHT. EPIC.

38. Let’s pretend you’re a kick-ass crime fighting superhero/heroine! What’s your kick-ass crime fighting name?
I AM SUPERDUPERUBERMEGAOWNAGEANTINOOBEPICWHYSOSERIOUSWTHKICKASS MAN.

39. What about a gangsta name? Fo’ real yo.
Hahaha I already got one, my friend gave it to me. I’m Drizzle X)

40. Now for your ninja/anime/manga name! (Answer in this format: ‘watashi no namae wa *your Japanese name* desu.)
Watashi no namae wa Kirisute Usaginote desu.

41. Did you have an imginary friend when you were little? :3
Yeah huh, still do X3

42. Do you sing in the shower?
YESH! Quietly though, the acoustics in my bathroom are surprisingly good.

43. And do you dance like no one's looking (or dance WHEN no one's looking? :p)
Hahahaha you won't believe the embarrassing stuff I do. X)

44. Last thing - Make a declarative statement about yourself:
I'm gonna rock your socks off and love you while I'm at it. ;)

45. How do you feel after completing this meme?
Worn out but relieved, in my case hahaha.

46. Would you like to see more Roo-mes?
We’ll see how popular this meme gets :p

NOW 5 PEOPLE YOU WANNA TAG:
1.Rachel Lee
2. Rachel Koh
3. Amanda
4. William Beckett
5. Whoever wants to try it out :D

OWARI~

2008-09-16T14:47:00.001-07:00

I'll update soon, I promise.

2008-09-04T06:15:00.000-07:00

TAI PLAYED IN TOKYO YESTERDAY.
THEY WERE IN SHIBUYA.
I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW.
I OFFICIALLY DRINK NOOBSAUCE.
SOMEONE SLAP ME.
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2008-09-03T04:21:00.000-07:00

Hmmm... I'm gonna try this photohunt meme off of Rach's blog. Blogger does very weird things with photographs though, so I'm not sure how it'll turn out. But whattheheck, let's have a bit of a gander shall we?

a) Answer the question below, do a Google Image Search with your anwer, take a picture from the first page of the results, do it with minimal words of explanation.
b) Tag 5 people to do the same once you've finished answering every question.

Ok, here goes..

The age you'll be on your next birthday: 17 yo.

A place you'd like to travel: SINGAPORE.

Your favourite place: SINGAPORE.

Your favourite food: Sushi!

Your favourite colours: I currently like the bright, fluorescent "techno" colours :D

Your favourite piece of clothing: My Zara tees X3

Your favourite song: Right now? Summer Hair = Forever Young - The Academy Is...

Your favourite TV show: Scrubs

First name of your significant other/crush: Sh! SECRET.

The Town in which you live in: Tokyo.

Your screen name/nickname: Then we'll turn it up and we'll play a little faster. (From a song called Slow Down.)

Your first job: Jobless.

Your dream job: Lawyer?

A habit you have: Daydreaming.

Your worst fear: VOLDEMORT.

The one thing you'd like to do before you die: Make things right with God.

The first thing you'll buy if you get $1 000 000: ALBUMS.

GOSH. That took a looooooong time. The people I choose are:

1) Er........

2) Pikachu (I choose you!)

3) Amanda (I choose you!)

4) William Beckett (I choose you!)

5) Whoever reads this and wants to do. (I choose you!)

2008-09-02T05:57:00.001-07:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Andrew
2. Roo
3. Rooroo
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. Then we'll turn it up and we'll play a ittle faster.
2. The world's better if you've got a TWIN! (L)
3. Boo, said the Roo.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. MY HAIR YO.
2. My height
3. My eyes.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. My LEGS. ><
2. My horrificly annoying acne
3. My waist.
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Chinese.
2. Chinese.
3. Roo.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Creepy crawlies.
2. I have a weird irrational fear of windows and mirrors.
3. Losing loved ones.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Oxygen
2. Food.
3. God.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW
1. Old NASS PE tee.
2. Hole-y shorts.
3. Sexy black boxers.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS
At the moment it stands as such...:
1. The Academy Is...
2. Paramore
3. Killswitch Engage
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW)
1. Summer Hair = Forever Young - The Academy Is...
2. My Curse - Killswitch Engage
3. Grace Kelly - Mika
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. Love
2. Trust
3. Fun
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE, IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. I have unusual estrogen peaks.
2. I've kissed a dude.
3. I drink vinegar mixed with mayo.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. Cute eyes
2. Great smile
3. Huggable :)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. Daydreaming!
2. Guitaring.
3. Random dancing.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Watch my TAITV
2. Run away from school.
3. And continue running all the way back to Singapore
THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED
1. Lawyer
2. Psychologist
3. Journalist
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. Singapore.
2. Singapore.
3. Singapore.
THREE NAMES YOU LIKE
1. Roo.
2. Rachel
3. Melissa.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Live.
2. Get married.
3. Make things right with God.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
Remeber, STEREOTYPICALLY.
1. I like to dress up :D
2. I can be very preppy (e.g. I'd put a hand in front of my head to stop a fan from messing my hair up)
3. I suck at sport.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. I AM THE EPITOME OF MESSY.
2. I'm attracted to girls :p
3. I got mah man-bits!
THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
1. RACHEL LEE, MAH HOMIE FO SHIZZLE MAH NIZZLE.
2. William Beckett.
3. I'll be lame and say whoever reads this and feels inspired to do it too.

<3 Peace, everyone.

2008-08-30T05:22:00.000-07:00

Haha it would appear that it has now become the norm for a meme to preceed every single post - in this case, it's a repeat hahaha. What can I say, I'm a memer.

Instructions:
1. Put Your Windows Media Player on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THE SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Wrathchild - Gallows (Quoi?)
2. How would you describe yourself?
Welcome - Slipknot (I'm a very welcoming guy aye. ^_^)
3. What do you like in a girl/guy?
To The End - My Chemical Romance (She'll be with me forever yo.)
4. How do you feel today?
Error:Operator - Taking Back Sunday (Definitely an error, I got a screw loose somewhere.)
5. What is your life's purpose?
Fallen Leaves - Billy Talent (Er, gardener?)
6. What is your motto?
Slow Down - The Academy Is... (This is somewhat true! I'm all about taking it easy and relaxing :D)
7. What do your friends think of you?
Canned Heat - Jamiroquai (I'm secretly hot? :p Or that I remind them of Napoleon Dynamite XD. If you didn't get that last bit, look up Napoleon Dynamite Dance on youtube.)
8. What do you think of your parents?
Entrance of the Conflagration (HAHAHA they're wrathful! [Conflagration = burning])
9. What do you think about very often?
Beating On Death's Door - Lamb of God (Er, when I die? o.o)
10. What is 2 + 2?
4 Words to Choke Upon - Bullet For My Valentine (OMG NO WAY HAHA. I'm serious, it was this song! Creepy coincidence yo.)
11. What do you think of your best friend?
Emergency - Paramore (Eto... I can always count on her in emergency cases? o.-)
12. What do you think of the person you like?
Come Clarity - In Flames (Haha, maybe that I could read her feelings more clearly :p)
13. What is your life story?
The Emo Kid Song - Adam and Andrew (NO.)
14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Approach The Bench - The Audition (Er, a mediocre sportsman who's always subbed out?)
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Summer Hair = Forever Young - The Academy Is... (Eto ne~ The chorus part?)

HEYO. Got through my first week of school in one piece. Gotta say though, this whole IB thing is alot tougher than it sounds. I'm already nipple-deep in homework and assignments and I have a feeling that by the end of next week, I'd have handed in a tardy piece of work. The future looks grim, my friends. However, I'm happy to announce that the whole whispers problem has declined :) Partially because some of the guys changed schools but generally, the two month break has seemed to divert their attention from me, for which I am thankful :) On the flipside, a new factor has been thrown into my DUGONG problem. D: OHNOES. Hahaha, that's a problem that I'm still wrapping my head around everyday. Let's hope I can clear it out aye?

TAI OBSESSOR MUCH?

2008-08-27T04:30:00.000-07:00

LIFE UPDATE YO.
But first, a meme:

First Thing, Three words
Say the first thing that pops in your head in only three words. Can you do it?

1. Feeling right now?
Peculiar
2. School
sucks big time
3. MTV
<>
4. Weather outside
Mildly cool
5. Housework
I don't do.
6. Cell phone
ring ring ring.
7. Shoes
Need a wash.
8. Grades
Are only letters
9. Water
Hache two oh.
10. Britney Spears
Get a life.
11. Rodeo Clowns
get owned.
12. Coffee
beats tea.
13. Schedule for tomorrow
School boo hoo.
14. Abercrombie
and Fitch!
15. Sports
So. Not. Me.
16. Traffic
light.
17. Socks
worn on feet.
18. MP3 player
is an iPod.
19. California
Californication, more like.
20. Pop-up ads
Pop-down subtracts
21. Dinner last night
has been forgotten
22. George Bush
loses to obama
23. Drama
Korean, Japanese
24. Newspapers
give you news.
25. Loudmouths
Know too many.
26. Best friends
I LOVE THEM.
27. Aggravating
Subject to it.
28. Cereal
WHY SO CEREAL?
29. Gangsta Rap
FO' SHIZZLE, YO.
30. This survey
OWARI~

OK, NOW LIFE UPDATE. Haha I know, I haven't been posting in a while. My laptop's internet connection has been acting all fuzzy AND school's started. D: Major bummer. The new teachers all seem pretty boring, which equates to a forseeably boring year ahead of me. Otherwise, I've doing okay-ish. I was absolutely miserable the first few days back. I was feeling all moody and I hardly spoke over 10 sentences a day, literally. I miss everyone really rather terribly :( But I prayed about it and talked to some people on msn, and I'm feeling better about it. Also, whoever sent me any developed photographs, thanks alot! I've stuck them on my cupboard door, and looking at them really helps me pull through the day :) I'm gonna go develop more photos soon and stick them all over my room haha! Anyway, I've decided that staying all miserable and depressed wasn't healthy, so I've resolved to be more optimistic :) But DO COME ONLINE MORE OFTEN! It's bad enough I don't get to see you guys, so I need to talk to you guys more, aye? Haha. I'm still struggling with my little dugong problem and with the whisperings but generally, you'll find that I'm doing alright :) Miss you guys plenty, already counting down the days til I get back :)

2008-08-17T02:11:00.000-07:00

Stolen from SamW's Xanga.

Basically u got to answer the questions using only song names. (No shuffle this time!)

eg. What do you think of yourself?
ans: This is why i'm hot-mims

Get it? Ok you got to put the song name and the artist behind. You gotta write it no matter how stupid it is. haha enjoy XD

1. What time is it?
One Year Six Months - Yellowcard
Time Is Running Out - Muse

2. What's 2+2?
4 Words To Choke Upon - Bullet For My Valentine

3. When are you going overseas next?
Ten More Minutes - Kill Hannah

4. Where did you have your 1st kiss? (or plan to)
Rooftops - Lostprophets

5. What is something u really wish for?
Sleep - My Chemical Romance
Miracle - Paramore

6. How do you get money?
Killing In The Name - Rage Against The Machine
Life of a Salesman - Yellowcard

7. A word to describe yourself?
Lost - Avenged Sevenfold

8. What do you think of your parents?
Good Enough - Evanescence

9. What do you think of your friends?
A Little Piece of Heaven - Avenged Sevenfold

10. What do you want to achieve in life?
Love Today - Mika

11. What did you do today?
Dance, dance - Fall Out Boy
Rehab - Paolo Nutini

12. What do you like to eat for breakfast?
A Little Priest - Sweeney Todd OST
Rabbits Are Roadkill on Rt.37 - AFI

13. When was your happiest time of your life?
Summer Shudder - AFI

14. What do you like to wear?
Skin and Bones - Marianas Trench

15. How long will you wait for someone on a date if he/she is late?
Forever and Always - Bullet For My Valentine
Endlessly, She Said - AFI

16. What will you be doing tomorrow?
Rewind - Paolo Nutini

17. Where do you stay?
Bat Country - Avenged Sevenfold

18. What will you do to get what you want?
Attack - 30 Seconds To Mars
Hit The Floor - Bullet For My Valentine
Wait and Bleed - Slipknot

19. What's your ambition?
Running Free - Iron Maiden
Loving You - Paolo Nutini

20. Your favourite word is
Mama - My Chemical Romance
Alright - Jamiroquai
Hello - Evanescence
Scream - Avenged Sevenfold

21. What do you loathe?
Schoolmaster - Rowan Atkinson
Traitors Never Play Hangman - Bring Me The Horizon
The Pretender - Foo Fighters

22. What's the most shocking thing you've done?
Detonation - Trivium
Supernatural - Flyleaf

23. When you need an excuse:
Run To The Hills - Iron Maiden
Lying From You - Linkin Park
Say Anything - Marianas Trench

24. What do you do most often?
Beekeeping - Rowan Atkinson
Lose Control - Evanescence

25. Guilty pleasure?
Paradise City - Guns N Roses
Knights Of Cydonia - Muse

2008-08-10T10:59:00.001-07:00

Sadly, this post heralds my time in Singapore drawing to a sad close. I'll be heading back off to Japan in less than 24 hours, adn really, the thought of leaving the island is heart-wrenching. Time goes by way too quickly, and whatever time I had here, seemed way too short. Without a single doubt though, no matter how quickly it may have passed, those were the 2 GREATEST, MOST AWESOME months of 2008 so far, and I'm really glad I got to experience everything I did within that span of time. I thank God for all my friends here, friends who I consider my family, whether life-long mates, or new aqcuaintances, you all hold a really special place in my heart, and NOT ONE OF YOU is replaceable. It's gonna absolutely tear me to not see you again for another few months but hey, absence makes the heart grow fonder aye? The bonds between us will not snap - they'll only grow stronger, and I look forward to when I get to come back to see by just how much that bond has grown. There's lots of things I'd like to say to lots of you - and for some of you, trust me, there's alot that I'm just dying to tell you but fear that now is not the right time. As a general thought though, ALL of you are awesome. I wanna thank all of you for giving me the happiest 2 months of 2008. Thanks for cheering me up, listening to my problems, laughing, smiling alongside me, dancing with me, chatting, hanging out, really these are all just everyday things, but they mean so much more to a person when the people they're closest to can only be seen every few months. I've done so much thinking over the course of my holiday and I realized that you guys are the best friends in the whole entire world, and I am so lucky to have all of you as friends, so lucky that God has blessed me with all of you guys. (Heh, I'm crying now as I type this. I'm such a wuss eh?) You know, I may never really say this to any of you or anything but really, even if I don't talk to you much, even if I may seem somewhat indifferent towards you, the truth is I <3 you. Seriously, I love you guys more than I can say and I'm sorry if I hurt you, was mean to you or took you for granted at any time. Really, you guys COMPLETE me. I mean, I don't care that I'm sleeping on the floor of a dusty house for 2 months. I don't care that there's noisy construction going on just 5 metres opposite my house, I don't care that I have to walk and sweat just to come out and meet you guys because ALL of you are MORE than worth all those discomforts. I don't know how many people actually care to read this blog of mine but to those that are, actually, even to those that aren't, YOU are a part of MY life and I can't imagine my life without you in it. I wholeheartedly thank God for blessing me with you guys and I love you guys planet-loads. Until the next time we meet again, bye :)

<3
Roo.

2008-08-08T10:04:00.001-07:00

DAY39.

2008-08-07T09:38:00.000-07:00

Missing you. Talk to me.

Day38:
When you think of the word 'debt', one of the first things that probably comes into your mind is money. And loansharks and banks and all that stuff. And we think 'luckily, I'm not in that situation'. What lots of us don't realize is that we're actually indebted to ALOT of people. We are in the debt of the aunty who clears the plates at the hawker centre. We are in the debt of the people who clear our trash. We are in the debt of the people who sweep our school floors. Really, we owe alot to them, and I think it's about time we fulfil our debt.

2008-08-06T10:14:00.000-07:00

Ok, no excuses really, I didn't blog last night cause I didn't feel like it, simple as. So don't you whinge at me. Anyway, I'm feeling heaps better :) Thanks for all the support and concern shown by everyone, it relaly helped :D And Nic, I'm really glad you're ok. We gotta hang soon though yeah? :D

Wellyesterday I went to catch The Dark Night a second time, and The Joker didn't fail to entertain me again. Really, I could watch the guy go all day. Hospital scene FTW! So today was alot more occupied than yesterday. First up we went to visit my grandpa at the Garden of Remembrance. It's such a shame I didn't get to know him or anything. He wasn't even around to watchhis children bring a new generation into existence. It kinda saddens me, but then I think about it again and remember that he's gone to a better place than here, and I smile :) Later in the afternoon, went out to look at some good proper stompyboxes with Ben. Met up at Katong and headed down to this small cozy place where unfortunately, they didn't have the Boss Metal Zone MT2 that I was initially looking for. Fortunately though, I found a replaement for it - the Digitech Distortion Factory, which is kinda like 7 distopedals in one. Not bad at all :)) Sore kara, off to his house for a chaotic teppanyaki dinner, then home :)

With the tide of relief come a whole new wave of anxieties

Day37:
Omygoodness, 3 more days! Hontoni ganbatte minasan~! Devotional today - if Singapore could rise out of nothing to become one of the most prosperous countries in Asia, so can Timor, and we need to make that happen. How? Answer:

2008-08-04T10:57:00.000-07:00

I NEED A HUG. :(

So the lousy feeling from last night decided linger on to continually gnaw at me throughout the entire duration of today. Oh joy. Anyway, thanks to everyone who took notice and decided to try cheer me up :) Really, it is very much appreciated, and I sincerely apologize if I acted like a complete jerk toward you - it was just that terrible mood I was in. Let's just hope I feel better tomorrow :)

Day35:
Well now that's a new perspective on things. Before, the idea/ impression I got was that we should give part of our wealth to the poor and needy. Which isn't wrong in any way. Today's devotional however, says that we can do MORE than that. We can be like David, and absolutely INDULGE the poor and needy in our success, raise them up to our level and treat them as special beneficiaries. Wow, what a thought :O

2008-08-03T09:42:00.000-07:00

It was a confusing day today. I was faced by all sorts of questions in the most unexpected places. Questions about myself, questions, about other people, questions about the world in general. There was this whole issue of conformity. Does a colourful, six-sided cube with moving pieces mark you out as a conformist? As someone who blindly follows the rest of the sheep just cause they're all doing it? Has conformity even retained its meaning?

How much is too much? Is it really worth all the effort you've put in, once you see the final result? Was it all really necessary? A line has to be drawn somewhere, and stepping over it would not be a good ideaSometimes, it may seem to you like you're doing it out of jest, as a bit of a joke, but maybe the other party really really sees it another way. It is this that you have to be wary of. Remember.

Is there an underlying current? A hidden drive inside all of us to be more "outstanding" than others? Sure there is. It's all about what means we go through to attain that. Are some of us just putting on that old false facade, pretending to be someone we're not? Have we lost ourselves in the ebb and flow of individuality? And this search for so called "individuality".. Has it reached the ridiculous level where everyone is SO individual that NOONE is individual? And thus attracting hate and spite from one another? Attack OF the Clones and Attack ON the Clones?

If an Alligator is chasing after a Dugong but chances upon a Nautilus, what does it do? What would the outcome of such an event be?

I guess pretty much the day decided to round itself off by making me feel absolutely lousy. Really, honetly, I feel like crap. And I'm sorry but I just lost whatever little mood I had to post about Day34. I just feel really uninspired, disinterested and unhappy. You'll hear from me again when I'm done feeling like a stupid little boy.

Bye.

2008-08-02T09:50:00.000-07:00

Breathe for love tomorrow, cause there's no hope for today.

Still recovering from the symptoms of FOP - my throat's getting better hahaha. Hope those of you that went today had fun it was awesome no? For those of you who haven't, you should! Not only do they have an awesome worship session there, but they got a really good speaker too! And if you got a friend who's interested, or wants to go, then you should get them to come along with you :) Really, no matter what, we're all God's children gathering in one place to praise and worship Him and everyone should have that chance :)

So anyway, today was spent meeting up with a couple of Onions and watching 2 movies - The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor & Money No Enough 2. TMTOTDE was alright, kinda overrated in my opinion, but not terrible. Definitely entertaining but not a masterpiece, put it that way. MNE2 on the other hand, exceeded my expectations. It struck a fine balance between humour and heartwarming, character building stuff. I really should learn to be more thankful for my parents, they've done so much for me :)

Day33:
Omygosh, 1 week left! ONE WEEK. WOW hahaha. Eto kyo wa~ Challenges. God often gives us these little trials. And we really need to consider our reactions to such things. Do we stand up and accept the challenge or do we back down and hide? We need to learn how to see what is the right way to conquer a challenge. For example, we may not exactly like a person. But they are one of God's children. Should we act on our own impulses and disassociate ourselves from that person, or set aside our imperfections and extend the loving hand of God? Naturally, the second choice is harder, but it is the RIGHT choice. In a similar way, when God tells us to go out, fight poverty, and share your wealth, it is difficult because in this society, material possessions ensure your comfort. But the right, albeit the more difficult option, is to obey what God has said and pick up the challenge.

2008-08-01T09:51:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY'S LACK OF A POST WAS DUE TO A LACK OF THE MOOD TO DO SO. I WAS FEELING RATHER LOUSY. But it's all good now :)

OMGOODNESS today was packed! Morning - went out to meet Nic at Parkway (hahaha we seem to always end up there) for only an hour this time :( (WE MUST HAVE A MORE EXTENDED ONE SOME TIME) So the time was just spent walking around and talking. And I really like her new haircut! It's cute! Unlike my raggedy bleah of a 'do. Anyway, I think she's doing really well, and I pray that she'll just grow from strength to strength :) After that, it was a mad drive down all the way to Dover, to have lunch at Jon's place. Excellent lunch, excellent fun-having. Naturally, I was on Jon's guitar half the time! Any opportunity to practice this holiday is a valuable one! And hanging out with Jon is always great anyway. I've known the guy his whole life! The day was drawn to an EPIC close with FOP (no, not Fall Out Poy) - Festival of Praise. Hahaha after about half an hour of confusion over seating arrangements, we finally got down to some hardcore worship which left all of us sticky and not terribly fragrant. :D The speaker was incredible too. Very tall and very funny. My only one complaint is... THERE WAS NOT ENOUGH JUMPING SPACE! >< Half the time I was jumping on my bag and other times it felt like I was gonna stumble and fall down the steps or into the seat in front of me XD But all in all, an awesome end to an awesome Friday :D

Day32:
Aah, now I touched upon this 2 days ago. The whole business of being blinded by our worldy treasures and possessions. Immediately there's this one verse that springs to mind, but I can't remember which verse it is. It's the one that goes like "Store up for yourselves treasures in Heaven, where moths and rust do not distroy, and where thieves cannot break in and steal" or something like that. Any "treasure" we have on earth are all only temporary and can really obstruct the way from finding the true treasure in Christ our Lord. In fact, less of all these material things help us identify more with the poor and thus build up more treasures in Heaven, as God says :)

2008-07-30T10:47:00.000-07:00

Haha this was so fun I had to do it again :p

1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal/blog.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Love Like Winter - AFI

2. How would you describe yourself?
Three Nil - Slipknot (Unsporty? [I'm the nil XD])

3. What do you like in a girl/guy?
Rooftops - Lost Prophets (Hair? o.o)

4. How do you feel today?
Ride The Wings Of Pestilence - From First To Last (Diseased? o.o)

5. What is your life's purpose?
Emergency - Paramore

6. What is your motto?
My Curse - Killswitch Engage

7. What do your friends think of you?
Duality - Slipknot (2 sides to me? hahaha)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Slow Down - The Academy Is... (Slow down..... with your nagging? XD)

9. What do you think about very often?
Warriors of Time - Black Tide (HAHAHA)

10. What is 2 + 2?
Pull Harder on the Strings of Your Martyr - Trivium (HAHA anyone read 1984?)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Flight of the Bumblebee - Bobby McFerrin (o.o)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Knights of Cydonia - Muse (OMG NO WAY)

13. What is your life story?
Sunday Morning - Maroon5 (Huh?)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Afterlife - Avenged Sevenfold (Angel? :D)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Shut Me Up - Mindless Self Indulgence (LOL)

Well today went really rather swimmingly. Woke up at the usual 12+ and went out for lunch about 2. Let me tell you about this place called Botak Jones. Essentially, it's just a coffeeshop outlet but they do like, really good steaks and burgers and hot dogs and fish and chips and sandwhiches and the like. Ok so I had like a regular burger and I swear it was BIGGER than the CARL'S JR BURGERS. Omg the thing was abominably huge! I had plenty of trouble fitting it into my mouth -.- After that, it was off to meet Afiqah, Feng Sheng and Amalina, who I haven't seen in God knows how long :D It was great seeing them again, and great meeting Eugenia, even if I didn't really speak to her much. WE GONNA MEET UP AGAIN SOME TIME :D

DAY30:
OMG 3/4 of the way through! Omygoodgollygoshgoodnessgraciousme everyone ganbatte~! Only 1/4 of the 40 days more! It's passed by so fast hasn't it! Wow! I'll be semi-glad when it's finally over, cause it's actually pretty tough haha ;p

Very often, we do things for people, expecting something in return, even blind people selling tissues at hawker centeres! We give them some cash with the expectation that they'll give us some tissue in return. And sometimes we are angered, annoyed and agitated when we do not receive what we expect to. However, God has taught us otherwise. We should be giving our aid unconditionally. Just like His unconditional love for us. If we are to become more like Jesus, we must show the same unconditional love for everyone, be merciful and learn to recognize that every individual is worth something :)

2008-07-29T10:20:00.000-07:00

1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal/blog.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Supermassive Black Hole - Muse

2. How would you describe yourself?
Rose of Sharyn - Killswitch Engage. (Hahahaa that's somewhat true. It's a metal song. I've got an edge to myself but I definitely have a romantic touch :p)

3. What do you like in a girl/guy?
Almost Easy - Avenged Sevenfold (Easy to get along with, it's true!)

4. How do you feel today?
I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance (Not true, I do love you.)

5. What is your life's purpose?
For Stevie Wonder's Eye's Only (Braille) - Bring Me The Horizon (shrugs)

6. What is your motto?
Nemo - Nightwish

7. What do your friends think of you?
All Around Me - Flyleaf (Self-explanatory)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Teenage Dirtbag - Wheatus (HAHA they probably think that I'm one! LOL)

9. What do you think about very often?
Red Flag - Billy Talent

10. What is 2 + 2?
Shameful - Atreyu (Wha-?)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Deliver Us From Evil - Bullet For My Valentine (She can definitely do that hahahaha)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
White Unicorn - Wolfmother (Wth? Hhahahahaa)

13. What is your life story?
Silver and Cold - AFI (USED to be)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Bring Your Own Bombs - System of a Down (Military? NOO!)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Love Today - Mika (HAHAHAHA NO WAY! My iTunes must be rigged! XD)

2008-07-29T09:33:00.000-07:00

Well today I was reading N's blog and Ichanced upon this line that said that I looked happy. And really this was a big deal to me. Had this been about a year ago, the line would've probably gone something like "he seems so sad and depressed". Looking back, I think I've come a long way from those days and I'm really glad I have. I think, right now, I'm really happy with where my life's at, and it's all thanks to God :) Thank you God for everything you've blessed me with - friends, family, and most of all your Son. Really, it's all thanks to Him that this change in my life has taken place. And thank you N for revealing that to me :)

Day29:
Today's devotional is SO true. Singapore is truly one of the most (if not THE most) blessed countries in Asia. It is economically prosperous, protected against natural disasters and is a country where people can worship God freely, without fear of persecution. The best thing to do with this blessing is to make good use of it. Pass the blessing on because we CAN.

2008-07-28T09:41:00.000-07:00

Oh dear, it would seem I forgot to post last night ><>THE DARK KNIGHT! And omygoodgollygosh it was good. It was superduperuberohmygoodnessgraciousmemegafantasticamazingawesomerifficantinooboverninethousandnarniaEPICPWNAGE! (You should try read that word, it's worth it.) Haha, I'm probably gonna catch it a second time. Hands down without a doubt, the entire movie belonged to Heath Ledger's (R.I.P) portrayal of The Joker. Stellar moments include the pencil trick, the hospital blow-up seen, and of course, WHY SO SERIOUS?

Compared to yesterday's happenings, today was more lethargic than a lethargic bag full of lethargic things during a lethargic festival in Lethargic City on a lethargic day in a lethargic season on the planet Lethargic. So I'll skip it.

Day28:
Now, rather than continuing on about the poor and poverty-stricken, today's devotional put a focus on the rich and wealthy. Wealth and prosperity is, in worldly terms, a great thing. However, it can have many negative side-effects. People can make idols of their money, putting it before God. They can keep in mind the the progress of the stock market and forget the commands of our Lord. They can turn a blind eye on those who do not have what they have. Great wealth must be handled carefully, and God's counsel must be sought when placed in such a situation. Simply put:

"With great economic prosperity comes great social responsibility."

Remind of you Spiderman much? Note that it does not say NOT to make money and get rich. By all means, enjoy what God has blessed you with. But you must remember that He DID bless you and that in doing so, He also gave you a responsibility to care for those who aren't as prosperous. Thank God for the blessing, then pass the blessing on :)

2008-07-26T09:32:00.001-07:00

HAIRCUT. A little off the top sir? Too much, you knave. I miss my locks. Grow quickly, hair.

Day26:
The small things. That was the subject of today's devotional. Rather than shooting straight to the EPIC world-changing, omygoodnesssuperduperubermegafantabulousantinoobpwnage big stuff. We gotta start small. I couldn't help but smile and think of this one line from the movie Evan Almighty. It went something like:

"How do we change the world? Through random acts of kindness."

It's comforting to know that when you give up your seat for the elderly on a bus, when you pick up a book that someone's dropped, when you give a dollar to the guy selling tissue at an mrt station, that you are in fact making a differnece, and building up to greater things. It's nice to know that our efforts are not futile :) But at the same time, we can't just remain stagnant - at that stage of giving a dollar. We should build and grow from there. In Pokemon terms, we must gain more EXP to level up and evolve! Doncha know, I used to be a huge Pokefreak. I'm tempted to post the lyrics for Blink 182's 'All The Small Things' after this but decided that's it'd be way too cheesy. And too much cheese isn't good for anyone. :D

2008-07-25T09:33:00.000-07:00

Finally, some action! I <3 Fridays don't you? :] Well today finally met up with Mel (<3) one of my bestest friends in the world. Don't know what I'd do without her haha. Unfortunately, this was done at the expense of today's LGEE. Sorry guys, I guarantee my attendance next week! So anyway, our initial plan was to head over to sentosa first to catch the sunset, but due to the horrifyingly obnoxious Singaporean weather (it rained), we couldn't. Boohoo much? So we ended up just hanging around Vivo and (once the rain had stopped) went outside for a prolonged chat and camho session. Just nice, chilled enjoyable stuff. Hanging out with mel is always great :) I do miss her an awful lot when I'm in Japan. Of course, I miss everyone else too! X3 I don't hang out with mel enough though haha. WE'LL CATCH THE SUNSET ANOTHER TIME :D

Day25:
Hey hey hey, just over 2 weeks more to go! Everyone holding steady still? Hope you guys are! Encouragement is key during these 40 days so here's some of that encouragement covered in awesome sauce with a side of awesome fries. Ganbatte minasan~! The end is in sight! You have my support and I know I've got yours :] So let's finish of the 40 days strong aye! Sprint the final half! Here's an awesome serviette to wipe all that awesome sauce off your mouth XD

I really liked the idea of this:

THE TWO PARADOXES OF CHRISTIAN LIFE

1)Life through death.

2) The foolish confounding the wise.

It serves as a reminder that being on top doesn't necessarily grant you the best things in life. Sometimes our intelligence can make profound truths seem dificult to understand. Really, all we have to do is just accept it and not depend on our intellect to explain it. It's fine to be outwardly successful - getting good grades, getting a good job, but it's being successful on the inside that really counts.

2008-07-24T09:33:00.000-07:00

A mask, a fortress, a shell? You decide.

NOTHING HAPPENED TODAY. MOVE ON.

Day24:
Hahaha I just realized that lots of my posts appear to be a day behind. For example, this one about Day24 will be posted on the 25th. This is cause I'm posting at midnight, when it really IS 25th actually. Just thought I'd clear up any confusion :]

Mission trips. Travelling to foreign lands to spread God's word. There are many places, countries near us; our neighbours that are broken or torn that need to see His light and feel His touch. And we do have the ability to provide that. You know, I'd really like to go on a mission trip some time. perhaps when I move back for good :) I just pray that God will instill in me that love and willingness to go out and touch lives. In the mean time, I'll just pray for the missionaries already out there - all those thermostats ;)

2008-07-23T08:42:00.000-07:00

From: SamW

1. Have you ever loved someone?
Without a doubt.

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or Gf?
Both hold equal space in my <3

3. Who are the people you trust the most?
The people who trust ME the most.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
In myself? Nowhere near enough.

5. What do you think of YOURSELF?
In the most concise terms possible, there are two sides to me - one is loving, sweet, optimistic. The other is dark, spiteful, pessimistic.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes. In the same way I believe in the calm before the storm. Where there's an up, there's a down and vice versa.

7. What is your goal for this year?
Better emotional control, tighter faith.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?
Of course I do. I'm subject to it every second of my life.

9. What feeling do you love the most?
Love.

10. What are the requirements of your the other half?
Physical appearnace is subjective. She must be God-fearing, loyal and fun :)

11. What's the song you're listening to now and why?
Love Today - Mika. I'm just in one of those happy, lovely moods.

12. What do you hate most?
I don't do the hating thing very much.

13. Between love and money?
Love. Just cause I'm that way.

14. What's the most attractive thing about a person to you?
Physically - Eyes and smile. Personality - Sweet or quirky

15. Describe the person who tagged you using 5 words.
Awesome. Friend. Loved. By. Me.

16. Who can you not live without?
God, Family, Friends.

17.If you have one wish now, what would you wish for?
Many more wishes.

18. What will you do if you are a millionaire?
Invest some of it for financial growth, and use the rest to wage war on poverty (Ties in with today's devotional ;) )

19. Have you kept pets?
Yeah. Unfortunately, right now I am pet-less.

20. Do you believe in dreams come true?
I've seen it happen :) And I'm waiting for MY dreams to follow suit. However, if dreams can come true. So can nightmares. Take caution.

Other 8:

1) Whoever

Hey everyone, I'm back from Penang with a bang and a bit of a tan! (Poor attempt at some sort of rhyme) Anyway, that's why I haven't been posting. If you've been wondering why then there's your answer folks. Anywho, that means I've missed out 6 days of devotional posting, but I'm not going to squeeze all those lost days into this post. I'll just focus on today's. BUT before that, I believe a little sharing on the Penang experience is due. It was alot more fun than I thought it would be. Lots of swimming and sun soaking. I even went parasailing!! Which was omgwthsuperduperuberpwnagenarnia fun! Definitely one of the more memorable events! AND THEN THER WAS THE FOOD! OMYGOODNESS. The char kway teow, the wan tan mee, the seafood was all just soo.... blatantdroolingonthetable-inlgy delicious. YUM hardly does the food justice. Of course, that does mean that I must've put on some weight.. Time to restrict myself :p

ANYWHOOO

Day23:
Wow, can you believe it? Over half way through! It's flown by so quickly! Well the past week has presented a bit of a challenge to me. It was alot harder being consistent with my prayer and devotionals in Penang, cause there was so much to do and by the time you've done it all, you're absolutely knackered, so doing it everyday was no easy task. Thankfully though, I was just able to discipline myself enough to do so :) Hurrah. Smooth sailing from now on, hoist the sails and anchors away.

Today's message was another simple one. It's about TAKING ACTION in the fight against poverty. It's all well and good saying that you want to help the poor, but if you mean what you say, then it's time to do something. Todays devotional was basically a call to arms: Deny yourself, take up the cross, join the army that God has called us to join. Wage war against Poverty.

2008-07-16T09:02:00.000-07:00

Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don’t read the questions until you have named the 20 people. At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this.

1. Mel
2. Jon Goh
3. Nicole
4. Eugene
5. Sam Wong
6. Shakila
7. Delane
8. Clarice
9. Jazlyn
10. Amanda
11. Liang Zhi
12. Rach Lee
13. Ryan
14. Brandon
15. Basil
16. Yuru
17. Dinah
18. Clayton
19. Rachel Koh
20. Carmen

How did you meet #14?
Brandon - Ngee Ann Primary, primary 5.

What would you do if you didn’t meet #1?
Mel - I would've missed out on one of my best friends ever! I've known her for half my life!

What if #9 and #20 dated?
Jazlyn & Carmen - Neither are lesbo, so it's hard to imagine :p

Will #6 and #17 date?
Shakila & Dinah - No for two reasons. 1) They're both straight, 2) Dinah's already attached! :)

Describe #3.
Nicole - A really nice girl, great to talk with, doesn't lie!

Is #8 attractive?
Clarice - Oh, I'm sure she is.

Describe #7.
Delane - Another nice girl, quirky and fun to be around!

Know any of #12’s family members?
Rach Lee - Yeah huh, I know her sister, Alicia.

What will you do if #18 confesses to you that he/she likes you?
Clayton - I'd have to remind him that he's already attached to Dinah.

What language doesn’t #15 speaks?
Basil - He DOESN'T speak Finnish, I'm pretty sure.

Who is #9 going out with?
Jazlyn - Nada, she's single.

How old is #16?
Yuru - My age! Actually not quite. She's already 17, I'm still 16 :p DA JIE.

When was the last time you spoke to #13?
Ryan - This afternoon actually, met him at ehub when I was going to watch Hellboy2

Who is #2 favourite band/singer?
Jon Goh - Haha I know he likes him some punk and christian songs to... So maybe.. Simple Plan/ Hillsong?

Is #19 single?
Rachel Koh - Yeah.

What is #10 last name?
Amanda - PANDA! No not really, it's Teo.

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
Liang Zhi - Funny you should say that actually, we're getting married :)

School of #3?
Nicole - International Community School.

How does #5 talk?
Sam Wong - It depends, sometimes it can be really normal but other times, it's really fast and high pitched!

Where does #6 live?
Shakila - Pasir Ris

What’s your favourite thing about #4?
Eugene - HAHA, this guy is DAMN FUNNY.

What’s the best thing about #20?
Carmen - She's a smart girl who ALWAYS gives me good, sound advice.

What makes #17 a good friend?
Dinah - She's a bright, bubbly girl who's easy to get along with.

When was the last time you saw #14?
Brandon - Hmm... Last week.

Five people you want to do this:
FORGET ABOUT FIVE PEOPLE!
I TAG WHOEVER DOESN'T HAVE THIS ONE THEIR BLOGS RIGHT NOW!

Day16:
Well. Today's message was fairly simple: 1) Be compassionate, 2) do not conform if it prevents you from showing compassion. Basically, the laws of God tell us to show compassion. However, sometimes we listen to the laws of MEN over the laws of GOD, when really, it is His word that we should be listening to.

2008-07-15T09:02:00.000-07:00

Today, in all honesty, was rather a depressive one. I spent alot of time just thinking about my little triangle, and the more I thought of it, the more utterly HOPELESS the situation seemed. Seeing how publicized this blog is now, I shan't go into much detail, but basically all the factors combined seem to make for an unhappy ending :( At this moment, mind-reading abilities would come in VERY handy.The thing is, I can't see a way around this that'll leave ALL parties happy. Someone's gonna get hurt no matter how I try to work around it.I'm biding my time here, cause rash decisions tend to get me in a fix, but I've a feeling that I can't leave this for too long.If anyone can offer me any POSITIVE advice without being judgemental , it would be deeply appreciated. This sucks.

Day15:
Thankfully, I did my QT before my little bout of gloom and managed to do the usual thinking/pondering/meditation/reflecting type thing. Today's lesson very much led on from yesterday's; and tied in with the point I came to in my previous post. Basically it was:

"If God is partial toward the underdog, shouldn't you be, too?"

It comes back to that point of striving to be more Christ-like. Jesus showed favour to the poor and needy. It wasn't that He noticed an impoverished person on the side of the road and decided to help him. He came to our world with an intentional mission to FIND that impoverished person on the side of the road, SO THAT he could show compassion. And surely if this was His mission, shouldn't it be ours as well? We are NOT too young to start taking action, to embark on a MISSION to aid the poor and needy. Let's start TODAY.

2008-07-14T09:00:00.000-07:00

Long sms conversations, crazy confusing triangles, the predator and the prey, free hugs, unappreciated touchiness, heineken and dried apricots, the mushroom and the great white, the whites and blues and khaki-greens, regret brushes, over-sensitivity, Las Angeles and Sentosa, Japan and Australia, triangles triangles TRIANGLES. Minor sadness.

Well today was surprisingly packed for a Monday. First meal I ate was lunch which was at Cafe Cartel, mom decided to treat us :] I love my mommy <3 Off to my aunt's house all the way over in Bukit Batok to give my cousin a cheque for his wedding (OMG HE'S GETTING MARRIED =D), head over to Parkway for a spot of shopping. I needed more shorts. all my shorts are getting wrecked, seriously. I have no idea WHAT I'm doing to them but they jurt keep getting ripped, or torn, or shot, or strangled, or drowned. Dinner, then over to ANOTHER aunt's house and witnessed the craziest, highest, hyperest 4 year old cousin ever hahaha. My day in a nutshell. A pretty big nutshell.

Day14:
Wow I felt today's devotional was pretty powerful.

"If Jesus came to Singapore tomorrow, where would He be?"

If you took a look at Jesus's journey, and what it says in the book of Matthew, and applied it to our modern Singapore, you come to realize that he'd one of those unk-uhs at the coffeeshop, a worker in the back of a lorry, or even a prisoner! As if that wasn't enough, the devotional then went on to say:

"Whatever we do to another human being, we do to God."

And I seriously got VERY frightened. I started thinking of all the bad things I've ever done to anyone, scolding them, taking advantage of them, making fun of them... All of these things that I HAD BEEN DOING TO GOD ALL ALONG. And THAT is why we should treat the impoverished, and for that matter ANYONE, with kindness. For Matthew states:

"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'"

-Matthew 25:40

Whenever we show love to ANYONE, down to the very 'lowest' by this society's standards, we're showing love for God. And conversely, if we truly love God, we will show the same love to all those around us! And showing love doesn't just stop at providing physical items like food or cash, but showing true love would mean SHARING THE WORD OF GOD. But how could we attempt to fulfil their spiritual needs without first attempting to meet their physical ones? Which is why we need to make a start in helping and loving the poor! This was truly one of greatest revelations I've witnessed so far during this 40 days fast. It's only day14. What could come next? PRAISE GOD!

2008-07-13T08:06:00.000-07:00

Today was Youth Sunday! AND IT WAS EPIC. Worship was awesome and the sermon was great too! Dr John is a really good preacher! To day he talked about the Beatitudes, which can be found in Matthew5. The Beatitudes, in essence, tell us how we should live. And when Dr John was explainging how to live by them, he mentioned this idea of picking and choosing, and I flashbacked to the very first lesson in the 40 Day Fast devotional - about being a cut-and-paste Christian (You must think I'm a total freak with all these flashbacks hahaha). And it served as a reminder NOT to be one of those. Also, he gave us this imagery of our good deeds being like a child's painting to God. No matter how small or unrefined the 'painting' may be, God is happy and pleased that we're putting in an effort to be more like Him. I felt so encouraged after hearing that! Like, I was just thinking about my inadequacies and all that, so to hear that I'm doing something right really cheered me up :)

Day13:
I didn't blog on yesterday's devotional for two reasons:
1) There was this suggestion to meditate and think about the fast so far, and I thought I'd like to keep that private for now.
2) I was just too darn tired haha. Seriously, I just hit my bed, CONK! and I was out for the count.
Ok so TODAY'S lesson however, centered around two parties: The Impoverished, and Us, the more fortunate. And today's devotional just put a bit of perspective on how these two parties should interact. Basically it came down to this: God is the mightiest of the mighty, the King of kings. Yet, he became flesh and blood and was sent into our world under unfortunate circumstances to die for our sins. So strong was His love for us. And we're supposed to be striving to be like Him. So that means, we must not think of ourselves as higher or more significant than the poor. On the contrary, we should identify with them, accept them and humble ourselves to truly love them. After all, one of the Beatitudes says:

"Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth."

-Matthew 5:5

There is nothing to be gained from taking pride in our social standing. But the rewards for humbling ourselves are great :) I hope I never ever ever ever ever feel that I'm above the financially challenged. They're gonna inherit the earth :)

2008-07-11T10:20:00.001-07:00

FRIDAY. The beginning of the weekend. AND IT WAS PACKED. Hahaha. Ok first up, went to visit my grandma on my mom's side, all the way in Sengkang. Been back for over a month and this was my first time visiting her! I felt guiltyy! Haha. But she's doing fine and all, more cheerful then the last time I saw her :) After that we headed down to the club to play table tennis and go bowling. There are only two words that come to mind when trying to describe the table tennis - EPIC FAILURE. No joke. Our rally counts did NOT exceed 5. Pathetic really XD. Bowling was far more successful! Managed an average score of 114 (averaged over 3 rounds). Not too bad! But there were these crazy guys next to us who made us look like total noobs with their insane spinning D:

Sorekara~ LGEE! Haha it was full house! Even Daniel showed up! ( Which seemed appropriate, seeing as we were starting the book of Daniel XD) And Matthew Tan showed up too! Gosh, I haven't seen him in a while. He's changed quite a bit since the last time I saw him aye. As usual, we had dinner first then headed back to church for some not-so-serious stuff. It was pretty chaotic actually haha. What with 1 hour long sharing sessions, obscurely worded pictionary and failed DOTA charades XD But still a blast, as LGEE usually is :)

Day11:
La dia numero once. Ok haha remembering the question(s) I was asking in my previous post? Like, how can I do more? Well guess what? Today's lesson offered me some answers. I'm starting to feel that there's gonna be more of such match-ups to come. Anyway, the booklet introduced this idea of gleaning. Now, gleaning, in essence, is scavenging. It's picking up after the main gatherers/harvesters/reapers have finished. And I also read the story of Ruth and Boaz. What I got out of it was basically, help to make their job easier, by giving them something you don't actually need that much of. Boaz gave Ruth more grain because he felt compassion for her, and wanted to make her life easier. So I'm gonna challenge myself to take on that spirit that Boaz was displaying - the spirit of charity. And this does not just apply for physical things like cash and other itmes. It could be voluntary help or even just support. Either way, it'll help to make someone's job, or even their life easier. So if we CAN do it, then why not? :)

2008-07-10T09:36:00.000-07:00

Well. Today 1am to about 6pm was boring. Sitting at home really not doing much. Didn't even go out for lunch - mom bought some stuff back. I had some really nice hokkien mee actually! But I think there was something dodgy in there, my tummy wasn't feeling too good afterward but it soon cleared up :) Later went out to meet Delane at Plaza Sing cause I really haven't hung out with her much yet. Hahahaha due to some problem with either her or my phone, we ended up meeting at 7, though we were actually in the same building since 630 XD So after buying a pink bucket and a spastic bear, we went to have some dinner at Long John's. It was a total misadventure, what with stoned employees and half an hour waits for your meal zzz (-_- ) After that we just walked around and she took pictures with her awesomegroovaliciousoldschool camera. Really that camera is like uber cool! Great way to end the day! ;) Had oodles of fun haha :D

Eto~

Day10:
We're into double digits! Hahaha well done everyone on getting this far! A quarter of the way through already, keep it up!

Ok so in a sense leading on from yesterday's topic, which was about being a busybody and intervening, today was about our "IOU to the poor." Basically, what God is saying, is that we HAVE to intervene, we HAVE to help those in poverty. He's given us a social responsibility for us to take care of those who aren't doing that well. It's not a matter of if you do it, it's when you do it. Back in Biblical times, people gave A TENTH of their earnings as offerings. A TENTH. It got me to thinking, am I doing enough? Am I being selfish? Should I be giving more to the needy? So I resolved to try help the poor more than I am now. Resolved to remember that every time I see someone performing on the street, or selling tissues for money, I OWE that person a favour, because of that mandate that God has given us. We have a responsibilty. Let's ensure we fulfil it :)

2008-07-09T09:15:00.000-07:00

WEDNESDAY. Neither here nor there. Wasn't too bad actually haha. Went to catch Hancock with Eugene in the afternoon. I heard alot of bad reviews regarding Hancock but I thought it really wasn't that bad. Quite the contrary infact. I rather enjoyed it. Of course, it wasn't the typical Will Smith wit-fest I was expecting. It was his more In the Pursuit of Happiness/ I Am Legend type material. But it was good :) After that we went for a round of bowling which was zzz. Terrible, terrible score.

Anyway, today I was kinda thinking back to a couple of years back or so. Thinking about who I was and such. And you know, I hate who I was back then, really I do. I acted in ways I'm really ashamed of and I did things that I'm really ashamed of. I mean, I was just thinking : "what the hell Andrew? Why the hell did you go on and do that?" Gosh, I was so DUMB! So dumb and full of angst! Which led me to do some really stupid STUPID things. Things that I really regret doing. But I thank God that I managed to leave all that behind to become a better person - the Roo you guys know today :) Praise God :)

Day9:
I guess the lesson learned today can be found within the title - BE A BUSYBODY. Obviously, this does not refer to rumours or gossip-mongering of any kind, but rather, not to be afraid to intervene when the situation calls for it. In today's modern world; in our very country of Singapore, foreign domestic workers are being exploited and abused. In fact, throughout the whole WORLD, this happens, and some aren't even VOLUNTARY helpers. Some are made SLAVES against their will. Now this was a topic that I really got into cause I'm seriously against all this slavery, exploitation and breaching of human rights. Back in England, I was an active supporter of this group/ movement called Stop The Traffik (http://www.stopthetraffik.org/default.aspx), which was this whole anti-slavery campaign. I guess, this whole lesson is akin to taking the initiative and standing up on the mrt so the ah ma can sit down. It's about taking the initiative to do the right thing. As Christians, we shouldbe bold and stand up for the right thing when we see that what's being done is wrong and unjust. Of course, this is all easier said than done, but through God's help and grace,I pray that we'd all be able to SPEAK up and ACT up in order to LIGHT up other people's lives, especially thoughs suffering abuse and exploitation. And for those who are suffering, pray that God will just ease their pain and give them hope in such terrible situations. BE NOSY. BE KEH-POH. BE A BUSYBODY.

2008-07-08T08:57:00.000-07:00

Man, today's schedule was pretty packed for a weekday, and I'm glad! Refreshing change from the usual, mundane, everyone's-in-school-while-I'm-on-holiday weekday :D So anyway, went to Jon's house for visit/tea/hang out/whatever. Ok I say we had tea, it was more like a second lunch (I've been having lots of second lunches recently, haven't I?) There were chicken wings, ham sandwhiches, cucumbers with tuna, curry potato things, and these weird half-eggs with mayo-nised yolks. Omoshiroi ne~ And it all tasted good too! :p Then there was the hangout! The best part hahaha. We watched Superhero movie! If you haven't seen it, GO SEE IT, IT IS HILARIOUS XD Of course I played on Jon's guitar and all his stuff. His newly-fitted strings and his $20 pedal ain't that terrible either. Waiting, to get a distopedal myself haha. THEN WE PLAYED AN OLDSCHOOL POKEMON BOARD GAME. It was this uberdupersuperpwnageawesopmeepic boardgame we played when we were still in primary school. WE ALL GONNA BE POKEMON MASTERS!!!

Then disaster struck.

I was in Bukit Timah. It was 6.25.
I had an appointment with my friends for 6.30 at Siglap.

The traffic from Bukit Timah to Siglap is just.... Unbearable. Vehicles seemed to get in our way more than ever and there was more than the usual amount of road-hoggers in the right lane... But still I managed to reach there at 7 thanks to mom's awesome driving! Hahaha had a nice steak and a nice chat :) Caught up with people I haven't seen in a long time like Andrew Ann, Wei Ru, Jolene and Phy! Hahaha they're still the same wacked out people I know :D

You have reached a checkpoint. Would you like to save?

Day8:
Well I consider TODAY not YESTERDAY to be the one week checkpoint. Haha thank God I managed to last this long, and well done to everyone else on their first week :) Keep it up yeah? I feel an update on my fasting is required. Eto~ It's going pretty well actually. I thought it would be harder as I assumed I'd be sitting at home alot in the afternoons with nothing to do BUT the computer. But thankfully, I've managed to go out almost every afternoon and do something waaay more constructive. Namely, spending time with friends and family, who by the way, I love to bits :) So hopefully I can continue to spend my time wisely :)

OK SO. Lesson #8 - The Great Alienation. To me this seemed to be about prejudice and discrimination against foreigners and how that leads to exploitation and oppression. This alienation extends to all sorts of branches - race, gender, social standing, socio-ECONOMIC standing, religion, and the list goes on. But I guess the 2 MAIN things to be noted are these: 1) If you personally harbour any discriminatory or prejudiced thoughts against an 'alien', rid yourselves of them and approach God in repentence, seeking forgiveness, and 2) For those that are suffering at the hands of alienation, extend a loving hand and provide them with God's help. Be it a disfigured person selling tissues for some cash at Orchard, or an an Indian who has to seek refuge on the streets and pavements of Little India, however different to you they are, just reach out and help them :)

As for that friend of mine mentioned in the last post, I just told him to take his time and shared a little more about God's love :) And definitely still praying :)

2008-07-07T09:18:00.000-07:00

YOUTH DAY! Hahaha doesn't really make a difference for me, I'm free anyway but I'm glad I got an opportunity to hang out with everyone on a weekday :) ANYWAY. I got down to church with my brother at 11 and NO ONE WAS THERE D: Luckily Sam Wong came shortly after, followed by Jazlyn followed by Kenzie followed by Kai Juan followed by Ryan. Had lunch, came back and there were SO MANY PEOPLE. OVER 9000! Hahaha anyway, highlight= FRISBEE WITH COLLEEN!!! Omgosh seriously, it was superfun! UF was followed by soccer and basketball, so at the end of the 2/3 hours, I was absolutely knackered, and I had managed to rip a hole in my shorts. Tsk. I now have only ONE pair of shorts with me that are fully intact.

Anyway I'm going to hurry on to the 40Day Fast part cause today something awesome happened..

Day7:
Ok so today's QT was slightly different. It was done in the Youth Lounge with my brother, Sam Wong, Kai Juan and Aloysius (is that how you spell it?). Kinda like a little bible study or what not. Eto~ Today's lesson was, I felt, aimed at our RESPONSIBILITY as Christians to help those in need, those poverty-stricken and those who struggle in today's world of never-ending inflation. It was like a call to take action to help these people and I look forward to learning what the right way to approach this is.

OK THIS WAS EPIC.

Earlier on in one of the lessons, can't remember which one, it talked about what will happen when you fast, and this verse was used:

"And if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday."

-Isaiah 58:10

You will shine like a light in darkness, a thermostat, not a thermometer, God will shine through you to reach others. LISTEN TO THIS.

Earlier, just before I posted this, a friend of mine, a free-thinker, was chatting with me on msn and he was talking about the end of the world in 2012. For those of you who don't know, it involves a huge particle accelerator that will form a huge black hole in the middle of the earth and swallow us all up. Then he said this "the scientists hypothesize that there's no God." And I just had this urge to TELL HIM. And I did. I told him that there IS a God, and that if it is His will to end the world in 2012, it will happen, but there is no way we can know when the world will end. Thinking back to the 15 day Mark challenge, I shared with him Mark 13:32-37. The Day and Hour Unknown. And then I decided to share LAMININ with him, seeing as he was a scientific guy. For those of you who haven't seen this GO LOOK IT UP. Laminin is a protein in your body that basically holds all of your cells together. It's the protein that HOLDS YOU TOGETHER. After reading this, go and google image it. You'll be amazed. After that, I was just talking to him about Christ and Christianity, and before he left, you know what he said?

"I'm thinking of converting."

I just went ballistic! I was just thinking THAT WAS WHAT IT SAID IN THE LESSON THIS IS CRAZY! I just felt so happy and so full of joy! I really thank God for working through me! And I really thank God for my friend! Now I just hope that He will grant me the wisdom to be able to be able to truly bring my friend to God. That He'll help me to do the right thing. Pray for me aye? :) This is truly awesome. Thank you God :)

"Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard."

-Isaiah 58:8

2008-07-06T08:20:00.000-07:00

Sunday today! Which first of all meant that I had to wake up at some unearthly hour... But after that it was down to Church, oh joy :) Church went great, lunched with LGEE members, second-lunched with the claricesamshakilajazlyndelane group XD Anyway, after that we hung out in Church and watched the rehearsal for the Youth Sunday service. Ok let me tell you now - GO FOR THAT SERVICE. IT'S GONNA BE EPIC I CAN PROMISE YOU. MAJESTY IS JUST o.o Really, don't go for it and it's your loss. ALSO. WE ARE GONNA NEED JUMPERS. RISE TO THE CHALLENGE.

Day6:
Ok I think that this topic is completely new, so to speak. POVERTY. Something Singapore doesn't see very often. Many of these poverty-stricken countries are in their situation because of corrupt governments and broken, unloving communities. Thankfully, Singapore isn't that bad.

"And all the believers lived in wonderful harmony, holding everything in common. They sold whatever they owned and pooled their resources so that each person's need was met."

-Acts 2:44-45

Now this is the ideal type of community, indeed the ideal type of nation. One where love is shared between each and every citizen, and forgiveness is commonplace. Not one filled with debts, interest rates and loan sharks. One where the chains of injustice are loosened and the cords of yoke are broken. So I pray that through each of us, we can start to transform Singapore into that ideal, loving community, and even the Church. Pray that we'll become truly like one huge loving family and help those in poverty - those who need our help. :)

2008-07-05T09:44:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY! FINALLY! Hahahahaha. When people are finally free to come out to meet me XD Eto ok so today started off late again (12pm) and I was supposed to meet at 2! :O Lol. Luckily, the appointment was pushed back to 230 :D So, I met up with Drea! Ms Dawn Rezoulski herself! Hahahaha I haven't seen her in what, a year? Too long! We met at Tampines Mall and just walked around looking for studs, computer games, phones, books, mags and novelt tees XD after that she had to scoot off :( So I thought I'd head down to church. GOOD DECISION. Hahahaha. Had a blast talking to Eugene and RachK. XD Hilarious.

Eugene, Shaun & I were supposed to catch a late screening of Hancock but the tickets were sold out. Last minute ticket purchase at Ehub on a saturday night? GG, at least you tried XD

Saturday =

Day6
Ok so like, know how I was saying that the topics from each day led on to that of the next day? I guess from yesterday's 'how to carry out a true fast', today's was 'what awaits you'. I guess? Haha. I thought that the whole thing was pretty self-explanatory actually. Like, you'd get closer to God, and He'd seem more real to you. And then I read:

"Then, your ancient ruins shall be rebuilt; you shall raise up the foundations of many generations; you shall be called the repairer of the breach, restorer of streets to live in."

Almost immediately I had this flashback (hyperbolized drama much? Lol) of one of Glenn Lim's talks - the Thermostat and Thermometer one. And I came to the realization that you'll not only get closer to God, He will be able to shine through you. He'll make you a light in the darkness! You'll become a THERMOSTAT instead of a THERMOMETER. :D

I really thank God for this 40 Day fast. Already so early on, I can feel him sparking off a change in me. Who knows what awaits us at the end of these 40 days? Praise God :)

EDIT: NICHOLAS GIVES THE SHIOK-EST MASSAGES.

2008-07-04T09:46:00.000-07:00

Ok so today (Friday) was probably the most eventful day of the entire week! So I'm superhappy! Hahaha. First up, went and visited my aunt down at Bukit Batok and had lunch and all that. And my cousin's getting married! Hahaha congrats man! Really awesome news! First cousin of mine to get married XD Partially cause he's also the oldest cousin I got haha.

After that was done, headed down to church for LGEE. Such a coincidence haha got on the same bus as Ben XD So anyway, in LGEE we went a little more in-depth into the topic of fasting. Like, what really is it, and how we should approach it and all that. Hahaha but like the whole meeting was really amusing. especailly dinner XD I think my intestines are clogged up with pearls (lol Alicia...) Anyway, the discussion was really helpful, not to mention relevant, seeing as I'm on the 40 day fast thing. Further understanding the whole concept of fasting was really useful so thanks Stef! :) Well yesterday was Day3 so today must be...

Day4:
Eto~ What I understood from today's topic was I guess... About this 'true' fasting. Which kind of makes sense. Like how the topics went from essentially 'what a false fast is' to 'what a true fast is' up to now - 'how do you carry out a true fast'. That's my take on it. So how DO you do it?

"True 'fasting,' therefore, is abstaining from things that divide the Church and destroy community"

I guess, applying that to MY fast, the computer has fantastic potential to destroy communities. It can make people anti-social and totally break down the bonds between, say, a family community. But that's only one part of the issue. What I gathered from today's LGEE was that not only should you abstain from such things during a fast, but during the time that you would normally spend on whatever it is, you should serve others and glorify God. So I pondered... How would I do this when cutting down on my computer time? Well recently I've been using the time going out with friends and family and strengthening the bonds between us. But maybe there's something more I can do? :) I'll wait and see :) Hahaha it's halfway through ONE week people! Ganbatte jia you! Still have plenty more to go! XD

2008-07-03T08:44:00.000-07:00

Ok so today I actually did something! Hahaha. I got up early (yes, I got up before 12!) to go cycling with Nic at ECP. OMG MURPHY'S LAW...! When you don't need it, there's an abundance of it; when you do need it, there's hardly any in sight... SO TRUE. Hahaha I spent a whole half hour waiting out in the sun to get a cab! Like, ALL of them were on call! People, stop cheating! Get off your butt and flag one down for yourself! XD Anyway, cycling was fun. It was soo peaceful :) And a bike ride is always better when you have someone you can have a nice chat with, and chatting with Nic was great :D Looking forward to the next time :D

Eto~ Kyo wa....

Day3 desu:
Ok so today I ALMOST slipped on my fast, but luckily I didn't :D I occupied myself with other things. Plus, I was out half the time anyway so thank God for that, whew :) Anyway, I saw today's topic as a kind of lead-on from yesterday. Yesterday addressed the surface and superficial, today kinda talked about an inside change:

"Fasting pleases God, only when it is accompanied by heart change, character transformation."

Again, God doesn't want to see all the false piety. He doesn't want to see us humble ourselves and fast and pray and all that just for the sake of doing it. Just to show that we're doing it. He wants us to mean it and He wants there to be a an actual change inside. The outside should reflect what's on the inside. So basically, I saw this as an encouragement to everyone doing the 40 days. An encouragement to strive for a spiritual change! Everyone doing it has my support and I hope that I got everyone's support in this too :D GANBATTE MINASAN~!

2008-07-02T08:14:00.000-07:00

Welcome to Wednesday everyone...! That middle-of-the-day week. Man today started late. Woke up at 12.30. NO IDEA how I slept that long really. Wasn't even that tired.. Anyways today was pretty much the same boring "everyone's in school but I'm on hols" day. Anyway today was the second day of the 40 day fast!

Day2:
I'm glad to say that I've managed to maintain enough discipline to stick to my fast haha. I haven't succumbed yet! No epic failures yet hahahaha. ONLY 38 more days to go -.- Anyway, I felt that today's topic was really relevant. This issue of false piety.

"Are we merely going through the motions of church, care group, community outreach, conference, and so forth, running hither and tither, just for show, just to stay in line and appear involved, but our hearts aren't really in it any more?"

This was clearly a question that I HAD to ask myself. Am I just putting on a show? When I jump during worship, when I dance, when I raise my hands, am I doing it all just for show? Am I doing it just because everyone else is doing it? Is my heart still in it?

"For day after day they seek me out; they seem eager to know my ways, as if they were a nation that does what is right and has not forsaken the commands of God. They ask me for just decisions and seem eager for God to come near them"

-Isaiah 58:2

Do I only SEEM like I want to worship Him, do I only SEEM like I love Him? Eto... I thought about it and I thought. No. It's not just a show. I may feel more comfortable jumping when there are other people jumping with me, but the reason I jump is really out of joy in praising the LORD. I really do love Him and I do love worshipping him. My jumping is an expression of joy, love and praise. This answer really brought alot of relief with it. I was really really worried that I was showing false piety - a false christian. Thank God I'm not :) I love God.

2008-07-01T07:12:00.000-07:00

Ok so I decided to blog about the 40 day fast cause I've got enough time on my hands. :D I've got NO SCHOOL you see hahahaha. SO anyway-

DAY1:
Ok so I guess I'd better talk about my chosen fast first. Eto~ I decided to go for a lifestyle fast. I'm gonna be cutting down on my computer time. Like, the computer really takes up more time and gets more in the way of God than my meals do. So I thought the computer would be a fair choice. Also, I'm gonnna be going on a short trip to Penang somewhere mid-July, and it is VERY hard to avoid food in Penang. Fasting in Penang would be nightmarish hahaha. Cho muzukashi~

So anyway, today was The Great Buffet. And right from the go, I was already faced with a rather hard question to answer honestly:

"Are you a cut-and-paste Christian with a pick-and-choose attitude towards the Word of God - slelectively reading and quoting what suits your personal whims and fancies?"

I actually spent a long time thinking about this question and trying to answer it. I came to the conclusion that honestly, yes I am sometimes. Sometimes I only hear what I want to hear from the Bible - not the entire truth that it's trying to tell me. But on top of that CONCLUSION, came this RESOLUTION: I don't want to be that kind of a Christian any more. I want to take the Word as more of a truth, rather than just a comfort, or something that I can read to make me feel good. I want to take in EVERYTHING that the Bible's trying to tell me.

So I guess those are the main points of my first day. 39 more to go! Hope I'll be able to persevere through them hahaha. With God's help I will I'm sure. Anyway, I'll be praying for everyone else who's doing this 40 day thing. Pray that God will instill that same discipline into all of you haha. And that you will open up to what the God's trying to tell you through His word :) Good luck have fun everyone, God Bless.

2008-06-30T09:13:00.000-07:00

Hahaha. Negligence is hardly the word to describe my absence. Haven't posted in, what, a month? However long, it's too long, and I think that it's high time I did something about that.

SO. I guess the main point would be that I'm back home in Singapore! Haha you have no idea how happy I am to be back! Like, I'm ROO now instead of just Roo. (Oh by the way, this is gonna be a looong post. I got a whole month to cover. Bear with me folks.) So I got 2 months in Singapore. I got until early August. Hoping to be able to stay past National Day for various reasons. We'll see how it goes.

Ok Whenever I get back to Singapore, I ALWAYS look forward to going back to church. Honestly, it's one of the highlights of my trip back. This time was even better, cause we had RAW camp! Out of all the camps I've been to, THIS one was the most (there is no other owrd for it) EPIC. Hahaha. One of the reasons it was so awesome was that I really really felt God in this one. Most of the time, it's just like an extended hangout with friends, but this one really touched me. It was soo awesome, really. I mean, sure, it was real sweet hanging out with my friends for the 5 days of the camp. It was a blast! But you know, this time it was more than that. This was a truly uberpwnageomgoshawesomeriffic spiritual experience which I'm not gonna forget any time soon. Everything about it was so epic! Epic worship, epic games, epic prayer, epic speakers... ALL EPIC! Seriously EPIC. Major kudos and credits go out to: GOD, Camp Comm, Sub Comm, All the other Comms, GL Rachel, AGL Joel, SAGL Daniel, Mentor Nicholas, Group Faithfulness, Glenn Lim, All the other RAW Campers. Thank you soo much for being part of the experience. Hontoni arigatou gozaimashita~ A truly awesome 5 days. Pics posted below.

Narnia.

It's also been great catching up with old schoolmates! Some of them I've seen more recently than others but it's so cool seeing them again and how they've changed now that they're in different schools and all. Sadly, not all the changes are positive. I think I've lost a friend or 2 :( But hopefully, I'll be able to win them back again :) Sad to hear that Robert was leaving. I had absolutely NO CLUE he was taking off. Hopefully, we'll still be able to meet up. Like, if his breaks are at the same time as mine. tjat'd be awesome. Oh yeah Rob! Hahaha thanks for the dinner treat. EH, no jokes, it was a $35 steak! Rob's the man I'm telling you hahaha~ Oh, and I visited Temasek Poly. Geez the place is huge! It's like 10 times bigger than my school! I was just like OMGWTH :O It was massive! Hahaha but it was cool. Met up with some people and had a chat over lunch, like the good old days :) Oh and I met up with Qi Yang and Jerven too, man I haven't seen them in what, 2 years or something. Man, it was great seeing them again! I wanna see everyone else now too hahahaha! Like, a primary school reunion would be absolutely ace!

On a more serious note, during the RAW camp (refers to above), we were given a challenge to read the book of Mark over the course of 15 days. Luckily, I managed to do that, and I'm not gonna run through each chapter right now. But I WILL say this. It answered lots of questions I had. But still some are left a mystery. I shan't disclose them right now- I'd like to think more about them. Anyway, I really hope I can cultivate this as a habit - that I can make it a point to read my Bible EACH AND EVERY DAY. Which leads me to this point - can anyone recommend a good book to go onto after Mark? Responses will be much appreciated thanks very much. NOW. There's gonna be a new challenge. This 40 day prayer and fast. I think the name is pretty self explanatory. I still haven't decided what kind of fast I'll be doing.. Suggestions? Haha. I just pray that I'll be able to presevere and endure throughout the 40 days. Ganbatte to everyone else doing the 40 days too :)

Ok this verse was shared by Glenn Lim and I think I might make it my life verse. It's really really beautiful-

"But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint"

-Isaiah 40:31

Point of Difference

The tide is turning

This is redemption's hour

In the midst of a world lost for love

You are all we have now

Yhe lost returning

Salvation is all around

In the midst of the world broken down

You are all we have now

For You are God

And this hope is our's

So Father open the skies

Flood the earth with Your light

This is love

To break the world indifferent

Our hearts are burning

A fire that won't burn out

In the midst of a world that's grown cold

You are all we have now

The earth resounding

The anthem of your reknown

As we lift up our eyes

And look to Your glory

Call us out

Let the world see

You are God

And this hope is our's

So call us out

Let the world see You are God,

As we sing

So Father open the skies

Flood the earth with Your light

This is love

To break the world indifferent

As we lift up our eyes

Fill our hearts with Your fire

In a world of sin we'll be different, the difference

Our eyes are open

Every chain now broken

In this world

We are different

Let Your love become us

As we live to make You famous

In this world

We are different

So call us out

Let the world see

You are God,

As we sing

So call us out

Let the world see You are God

One and only

In this world

You are all we have now

2008-05-28T05:10:00.000-07:00

If ever you need a person who can post consistently, no matter what the circumtance -
I am definitely not your guy.

The reasons for my absence are simply these:
1) An incredibly packed schedule reeking of ADD
2) Exhaustion
Also I got exams coming up, so I've been trying to get some quality revision done. Note the word 'trying'. I'm not gonna reveal what degree of success I achieved with my , ah, 'trying'. Anyway, the exam is in 2 days time, and I'm feeling alot more relaxed than I thought I would. I guess it's cause I'm thinking about what comes AFTER the exams. I'll be heading back to Singapore. I'm dead excited, I am :D It's what keeps me going - the names of all the guys and gals I love. I'll be seeing you guys in no time at all ;)

On a slightly sadder note, everyone seems to be falling in love and getting together. Which is great, really, I'm happy for those people. But, you know, being the person I am, I really can't help but feel somewhat left out. :( Haha I know I always mention this every now and then in my posts, but really it's a lonely business haha. And I can't help but wonder. What if I move around my whole life? Will I ever be able to establish a firm relationship? Not just intimate ones, but among friends as well. Like it or not, the distance between the countries WILL reflect in the distance between you and me. I'm just hoping the gap doesn't widen, but I can feel my feet start to slide.

2008-05-15T02:23:00.000-07:00

OMG THIS IS GREAT!
Turns out that Nic WILL be around when I get back to Singapore.
Omgosh I got so excited when she told me.
So much so that I nearly wet myself.
Aaaanyway.
Best news I've heard in a while.
I love getting good news.
*Sings to self*

2008-05-05T06:43:00.000-07:00

Yeah I know I said hiatus and what not, but I felt like typing this out. I express myself better on paper than in verbal speech, so I thought I'd just put some thoughts down. Remember that feeling I was talking about? The one where I feel like I'm being laughed at and mocked all the time? Well I'm glad to say that it's lessened, but it's definitely still present. And it's making me really self concious. Is i the way I walk? Is it my hair? Is it what I say? Is it how shy I am? Is it how quiet I am? Is it cause of my accent? I keep thinking these things throughout the entire schoolday and hen I finally come home, I'm so drained. I'm so tired. I just want to curl up and fall alseep. But school won't let me. I have homework. I've got a chem assignment. I've got an art project. I've got an econ paper. I'm getting so tired of it all that I've become really anti social at times. Especially in the morning. I have no idea what's come over me but I just refuse to speak to anyone. Not a word until 8.30. 2 hours of complete anti social silence. Without fail. Every morning. I need some rejuvination.

Also I'm missing everyone back home ALOT right now. Sure, I got friends here. But I miss my close friends. The friends that can stay with me for life. It's so frustrating. I have to make friends that I'm gonna part ways with in 2 years time. It sucks. Especially considering how long it takes for me to actually make friends. Once I feel comfortable, we gotta go again. It hurts. It's painful. I just wanna go home. Back with people who I can really stick with. The people I dearly love. Which is anyone who's reading this. (Since I know you're gonna be reading this and you're not in the most cheery mood, I'll say specifically that you're one of those people, N. I love you ALOT). I think that when I get back from summer break, it's gonna be worse. I'm gonna have withdrawal symptoms and whatnot. I'm always like that whenever I return from a home visit back to Japan or england or wherever. I cry some of the times. Cause I know I gotta go back to all the taunting, the superficial friends and all that hubbub. I gotta go back to missing everyone. And those feelings are all amplified by a factor of about a gazillion.

Haha I didn't intend for this to be a depressing post but looks like my fingers had minds of their own. Maybe something to lighten the mood?

Some Things You Should Know About Me:
1) Don't mistake my quietness for arrogance or store-bought rockstar aloofness. It's just teenage awkwardness coupled with an already shy personality.

2) BEN N JERRY'S COOKIE DOUGH ICE CREAM ROCKS MY WORLD.

3) I used to have this alter ego/ imaginary friend called Jack. The amusing thing is, he existed until I was 13 XD. He was like this guy I blamed all of my flaws on.

4) I AM NOT GAY. (i hope not anyway)

5) I'm a lopsided Harry Potter. I've got a scare that runs horizontally across my forehead XD

6) I AM NOT GAY

7) I AM a geek though.

8) I love you more than I can say.

2008-04-30T14:56:00.000-07:00

Er, did I mention?
HIATUS.

2008-04-04T07:27:00.000-07:00

Out of hibernation, thrust back into the world! Yawn, hello everyone. I haven't posted in about half a century but I'm just funny that way. Basically, I've been really busy with Spring break and then going back to school and whatnot. So here's the low down:

SPRING BREAK! Was a glorious 10 days of RnR. Which I desperately needed. I was starting to resemble a panda that had been punched in both eyes. I had homework but really, who does homework over break? Pshaw. So anyway we went down to Hiroshima for a few days. Which was kinda cool, cause as some of you may know, I've lived in Japan before. More precisely, in Hiroshima. So it was cool going back to check out where I lived when I was 3/4. Couldn't remember any of it but it's the thought that counts. It was pretty cool. Shopped a bit, went sight seeing, the whole 'whatever-you-do-when-you're-a-tourist' thing.

So we got back to Tokyo and my aunt came down from Taiwan to come visit us. I hadn't seen my cousin in quite a while. And he's grown alot! It was so cool, cause he reawoke the kid in me again. Hahaha it was cool. I totally got back into pokemon, and I picked up my gameboy and I'm like, 'Ok, I'm gonna get me a lvl100 Pikachu!' That Pikachu is now lvl47. Long way to go.But then I got sick! Well, not officially but I felt crap. I had backaches and stomachaches and shoulderaches and I got a fever, I felt lethargic and I puked and all that. Really. Don't think it's cause I'm pregnant though, which is a relief. But I'm all better now so worry not.

NOW SCHOOl. Aaaaaah and my chem teacher is being really really mean. we gotta do a whole chapter's worth of assignments in 1 week! ONE WEEK! AAAAH. Seriously Double U Tee Eff! The other teachers are being relatively nice though, so thank you. Especially Mr Johnson. Man, he's probably the most chilled teacher in the school. Man I love that santa clause teacher.

On a rather worrying note, I'm starting to get caught up in stuff that I swore not to. I'm mixing with people I told myself I shouldn't. I just hope I don't completely lose myself. Hey, N, you wanna do a prayer swap? Like I pray for your situation and you help me pray for this? Help me make the right decisions and stay out of trouble? It'd really help if you did. :)

Love DOES exist.

2008-03-18T06:17:00.000-07:00

EDIT: I deleted the last post cause I realised I was being awfully silly, and that I deserve a hard slap.

2008-03-16T06:00:00.000-07:00

Well what a surprising turn of events.
I wonder: Do you ever think of me?

2008-03-10T04:52:00.000-07:00

Well I realise that I haven't posted in a while. And as a result, a post is due. So here it is. In all its glory.

I'm glad to say that my situation has improved since the last time I posted, what with the whole paranoia thing. And this is all thanks to a certain special someone. If that someone is reading this, remember the promises we made to each other. Self-love, not war. You and I now both know that whatever they all say isn't true. We're uber. :)) You can beat Renee and I can overthrow Gregory (yes, I decided to name it. It does seem to help).

Having said all that, I look forward to the 21st of March, when I manage to escape a while for Spring break. As much as I try not to, I still dislike my school. And I'm wondering if I will ever truly feel like I fit in. But that's a thought for another day. And looking further down the line, June beckons. A delicious slice of 2 and a half month freedom. I'm already quivering from the prospect of such liberty. Wanna keep me company?

Oh yeah and this totally made my week:

"okay i hope this doesnt make u feel uncomfortable, but andrew,your really one of the sweetest guys ive met in a long long time and i'm glad we happened to cross each others paths again"

Once again thanks to a certain special someone. I do hope you know how great that made me feel :)

I was re-listening to this song and I realised how much I loved it. I used to think it was just one of those songs that the radios played all the time. But now that I've gained a deeper appreciation for music, and listened properly to what the song was actually saying, it really struck a chord with something in me. That little part in your chest, kinda squeezed between your lungs. Oh yeah, it got my heart real good. I love this song now. I nearly cried when I heard it again. Broken, by Seether, featuring Amy Lee's wondrous vocal talents.

2008-02-28T05:17:00.000-08:00

Ok so I have no idea what's been happening to me lately. I thought things were looking up. Which they were. But now, for a reason I can't quite fathom, I feel oddly strangled. I'm not sure how to describe this feeling. I feel trapped? Feel like I'm being suffocated? I don't know. There's just this huge weight on my shoulders that I feel but can't shake off. I panic easily and I feel really very paranoid about almost everything. I feel even more sensitive than I usually do. This hyper sensitivity combined with these bouts of paranoia really do make for a dastardly duo. I start getting signals that really aren't there at all. I always get this feeling that people are talking about me behind my back, that they're laughing at me. I feel like there are people who just want me to go away and leave them alone for once. I feel like there are people looking at me going "This guy again?" I'm afraid to look people in the eye. Whenever I talk to someone, my gaze is lowered so I can't see them looking at me, but I can feel them looking at me. Like they're searching me. I pull down the sleeves of my sweaters past my palms every time I feel that someone is looking at me. I don't know why. I guess so I feel less exposed? Is this a sign of insecurity? I hope not. I feel like there are some people who aren't really my friends. That they're just acting like friends cause it's this game they play for amusement. They pretend to be all pally with you only so that once you turn your back, they can turn to they're other friends, point at my back and start laughing at me. I don't know. It's a very strange feeling, and not at all comfortable. It would really help if I could just learn the truth from people. It would be easier if they just told me to shut up if they wanted me to. If they told me to stop bothering them when they wanted me to. If they told me to leave them alone when they want me to.

Are YOU laughing at me?

2008-02-23T05:48:00.000-08:00

Hahahahahaha so much has happened recently and I'm glad to say I'm feeling better. It's amazing what revealing a secret does for you. Like taking an elephant off your chest. So you might have gathered that I finally plucked up enough courage to tell her how I felt. But nothing's happening between us. Which is quite understandable. Starting an LD is alot to ask for so I ain't surprised. She's got her own problems now too so she doesn't need something like this to complicate things more. On that note, I really do hope things get better for her. Hope she doesn't stress herself out too much and all that. It ain't good for your health, girl!

Unfortunately, there's a negative side to all that's been happening in recent times. Regrettably, I got into an argument with one of my best friends ever. Over something really silly. I'm still struggling to comprehend how something so trvial could have set her off like that. That time of the month? *Shrugs* Anyway, it's been literally years since we've fought and since I've seen her so pissed off. I've tried apologizing and she say's she accepts the apology but I can still feel resentment. Also note that she said she accepted my apology, but didn't say I was forgiven. Or maybe that's just me being cynical. Ah I really don't know. I can only hope that all this passes with time.

2008-02-19T05:23:00.000-08:00

And Andrew, THAT'S what you get for being hesitant.

EDIT: I feel like slapping myself right now.

2008-02-18T05:22:00.001-08:00

Ahem.
Time for me to cheer up, I think.

I think it's time for me to lighten up a bit. I mean, what's to be gained from wallowing in self-pity and pessimism? Nothing. Ha, who knows, maybe if she sees I've cheered up a bit... And besides I'm at my best when I'm cheerful. So being all gloomy won't do me any favours. So I'm gonna try step out into the sun and try to get over the initial glare of things. And once I've done that, maybe I can try. And then we'll see how it goes. I guess all I can really do is hope that things turn out the way I hope it will. But. Looking at the circumstances and all. I doubt it will be so. Tsk, Andrew I thought you just thought you said you were gonna be positive.

Idiot me hahahaha.

2008-02-17T05:34:00.000-08:00

Watched as the butterflies fluttered by.

She seemed oblivious enough but does she know? Ah I talk way too much. I need to learn how to shut up. Gotta stop blurting things out like that. Honestly, Andrew.

2008-02-15T07:23:00.000-08:00

The confusion right now is killing me.

Cat out of the bag?

I've got a secret kept within me that I really really wanna expose but I can't. I really do wanna tell her but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of how she'll react. I'm afraid of what will happen next. I'm afraid I'll ruin whatever we have now. I won't be seeing her for another few months and that's plenty of time for feelings of awkwardness and uneasiness to brew and thicken so when i get back, what's it gonna be like? And would it be selfish of me to ask something like that of her? Isn't it selfish to ask that she commit herself to someone who can't even be with her more than half the time, when there's surely someone else who could do the same thing but is closer to her? Wouldn't it be selfish of me to take that away from her. And even if she says she's willing with all her heart and something DOES start, what then? I only go back twice a year. How would we build a relationship? And how would we feel after we've met each other during our visits? How would we feel when we get seperated for another few months? Wouldn't it be selfish of me to make her feel that? Isn't it just selfish to deprive her of someone else who could ALWAYS be there for her when she needs a shoulder to cry on? Maybe it would be better to just keep this bottled up inside me. I don't know. Maybe I'll just keep this all to myself and pretend everything is ok. Keep it to myself and force myself to smile when she says she's become attached when actually, on the inside I'm crying my eyes out. I guess I'd be able to get over the ache slowly, rather than have to make her go through all that. Maybe I should. Just let it gnaw away on the inside to stop it becoming the monster it could be.

If she reads this, ha, and still says yes, I'd be amazed.

We could dance on the ceiling when nobody's watching.

2008-02-14T03:56:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!
Ah yes, it's the fourteenth of February again.
My third, fourth? one out of Singapore.
And as I suspected would happen, no one asked me to be their valentine.
HOWEVER.
Even if someone HAD asked me, I'd have to say I already had one!
Ahahahaha.
Littlemissnic was my valentine today.
Even though we were in completely different countries haha.
But it's the thought that counts right?
So yeah, that totally made my Valentine's Day.
Thanks a whole bunch littlemissnic for being me valentino chica!
:]
Aishiteru!
So besides that, I'm gonna have to bruch my teeth real good tonight.
Lots of chocolate eatery today.
And the guilt is creeping up on me hahahaha.

nic http://xanga.com/littlemissnic says hello stranger. <3 says:
happy valentine's day, valentine!

nic http://xanga.com/littlemissnic says hello stranger. <3 says:
awww I LOVE YOU TOOOOO

^^^Made my day^^^
--

If only you knew.

2008-02-10T07:34:00.000-08:00

Ah now you see, this is why I hate moving so much. Friendships get screwed up. People go to places I can't follow, in more than one sense. I have to watch helplessly as things I don't want to happen happen to people I care about. It sucks. It bites to the core. Yowch. And I find myself paranoid. I jump at the smallest of hints, the slightest of suggestions, the merest insinuation. And I know I really shouldn't cause it's not good for me but I let my imagination run along with those little somethings that are actually nothings and then I just end up getting hurt again. I like to dream about what such simple things like that could mean and fantasize about an eventual outcome and almost always I'm wrong. My little soap bubble gets popped and I'm left with a mess.

I wish he/she wouldn't be so cryptic. I need to know.

2008-02-06T04:21:00.001-08:00

Tsk.
Stop imagining things Andrew.
It's not doing you any good.
So drop it.

2008-02-05T13:55:00.000-08:00

I wonder...

2008-02-03T04:49:00.000-08:00

Ok so I'm feeling better now. I'm feeling less tired and all. Generally, things are improving. But that empty feeling isn't going away. Like, this feeling that I have to do something but I don't know what it is. It's like this annoying uncurable itch and it only gets worse the more you scratch at it. What am I missing?

2008-01-29T05:24:00.000-08:00

Exhaustion is catching up to me. I can feel the strain in every joint in my body. I don't feel well. My appetite's going down, and my energy level is plummetting too. My senses are dulled, emotions muffled. My boat is filling with water and I can't find the hole to plug it up. I need some Flyleaf.

Fully Alive

Telling Layla's story spoken

'Bout how all her bones are broken

Hammers fall on all the pieces

Two months in the cover creases

Fully alive

More than most

Ready to smile and love life

Fully alive and she knows

How to believe in futures

All my complaints shrink to nothing

I'm ashamed of all my somethings

She's glad for one day of comfort

Only because she has suffered

Fully alive

More than most

Ready to smile and love life

Fully alive and she knows

How to believe in futures

Fully alive

More than most

Ready to smile and love life

Fully alive and she knows

How to believe in futures

I'm ready to smile and love life.

2008-01-20T04:58:00.000-08:00

Sadness anger hate in store

Rend the bird and sing no more

Seven letters through the door

Shush the crying hit the floor.

Rend the bird and sing no more.

2008-01-18T06:08:00.000-08:00

Maybe being a nice guy just isn't enough.

EDIT: I'm not like them. I won't buy in.

THEN WE'LL TURN IT UP AND WE'LL PLAY A LITTLE FASTER.

2008-01-12T04:31:00.000-08:00

Ok. Right. The weirdest thing happened today. So I was watching the video for 'Snakes On A Plane' by Cobra Starship, which featured members from The Academy Is..., The Sounds and Gym Class Heroes as well as Fall Out Boy (Pete Wentz has a one second cameo). So there I was watching the music vid, and then all of a sudden I think: "Hmm. William Beckett is so effeminate, he's almost attractive." "Whoa, wait, what!?" And I freaked! I started questioning myself. Hahaha. Fear not, I AM straight. But damn. William Beckett. Hm. I think it's best I just listen to the music, lest something like that should happen again. :p

I was thinking back to my young(er) days and it kinda made me laugh and shake my head. I was such a ridiculous person, and a total douche to boot. I must've had some form of ADD or something haha. Gosh. I was such an extrovert. Seriously, watch a clip of me from those days, and watch a clip of me now. You'll think I was two completely different people. And I just wonder. Where the heck did that guy go? How did this, quiet, shy wimp get in his place? What happened to all that self-confidence? Maybe I'll never know. BUT. Even if I did find that guy. WOULD I WANT HIM TO COME BACK? WOULD YOU WANT HIM TO COME BACK?

I really do hope I don't turn out to be gay. Haha. ;D

2008-01-11T05:09:00.000-08:00

Right. I decided to post something else for two reasons. Two raisins. ONE. I'm bored. TWO. I havem't been posting regularly so I'm hoping this will dispel my guilt. Oh and there's a third reason. THREE. I'm bored. Righty-ho. If you're reading this and haven't heard 'Snakes On A Plane' by Cobra Starship, go listen to it now. I'm currently hooked on it. I also happen to be hooked on cigarettes. No not really. Just the song. No nicotine for me.

Ok I've reached a really weird time right now. I currently feel friendless. Yes, that's the word. I feel oh so very friendless. I can only reach the guys back home through internet and lots of the people I know here are so false. So superficial. And I have trouble making friends like that. Therefore I am currently feeling friendless. Give me a friend! Hahaha.

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "SCREW YOU REPUBLICAN!"

I have received word that P!ATD are releasing a new album later this year. It's due out in Late March. Oh, I'm all aquiver. Hopefully it won't be delayed in any way. Like The latest Avenged record. That was more than a little annoying. And The Audition are bringing one out later this month. I'm debating with myself as to whether or not I should get it.

So far the Resolutions have not been going well. My emotions are running all over the place! That just teaches me not to buy leashes at $1.95 for 3! Get the real deal. And I certainly have NOT been building any self-confidence. Like. Zilch. Nada. Zero. Ka-plooie. In fact, it may have deteriorated. Deary me.

If you're angry and have no intention of calming down, 'Pray For Plagues' by Bring Me The Horizon is the song for you.

2008-01-11T04:04:00.000-08:00

TGIF!
Hahaha gosh I am soooo tired!
Exhaustion would be an understatement.
Not really.
:p
I AM tired though.
Thankful it's the weekend.
Ah but I gotta start studying.
We got end of semester tests coming up next week.
Too soon after the holidays.
Way too soon.
I've forgotten like, everything.
We better review what we've done in class or I am so gonna flunk.
Hm. School.
It feels like I have to make friends all over again.
Not with everyone though.
Some of the people there I still can't stand.
Especially this one guy who seperates people into two categories:
Player.
Loser.
I'm a loser hahahahaha.
And I really don't mind.
Singing off,
LOSER.
:D

2007-12-31T06:01:00.000-08:00

Well hello.
Sadly, I'm back in Japan.
Missing the folks back home already.
Folks = Sam Wong, Shakila, Clarice, Delane, Jazlyn, Amanda, Ben Carmen, Clayton, Rachel, Mel, Mish, Alicia, Darren, Jolene, Yong Jie, Wang Chao, Wong, Brandon and more and more and more.
I'd give almost anything to go back and spend the New Year with those guys.
Sigh.
Well 2007 has been a weird year.
Full of ups and downs.
Not enough ups, too many downs.
Obviously, the biggest thing was moving to Japan.
That might be one of the biggest downs of this year.
Just when I thought I could settle down....
Tsk.
Ups include meeting new people, making new friends.
New people = Sam Wong, Delane, Clarice, Jazlyn especially.
Thanks for all the support you guys have given me all this time.
You guys really are great.
Love you guys truckloads and thank God he b;essed me with friends like you.
Well.
I left Singapore with lots of questions unanswered.
I'm gonna have to do some self-examination to help sort those out.
Don't want to be plagues by them the whole of next year.
Who knows what 2008 hold in store for me?
We'll see.
But first.
New Year Resolutions.
I didn't really fulfil my last one so I'm gonna keep perservering with that.
Trying to keep my emotions in control.
And I guess another one would be to work with my confidence.
Be a more confident person.
Try and get rid of low self-esteem issues.
That's gonna be hard but I really do want to be more confident.
So haha, wish me luck.
I am so gonna need it.
Well as an end note, I'd just say once again how much I'm missing you guys back in Singapore already and that I love you all.
I'll see you guys soon.

2007-12-20T16:39:00.000-08:00

LTC was incredible.
Seriously, it was amazing.
And now I'm missing it alot.
LTC has made me realize one thing.
If ever my house got burned down, I'd run to PMC.
If for some reason I lost my parents, I'd turn to an YMpacter for help.
PMC is my second home.
YMpact is my second family.
I love them both.
There are people I need to thank who made LTC truly special for me:
Ah Des
Isaac
Justin
Shakila
Delane
Sam Wong
Clarice
Jazlyn
Amanda
Thanks alot guys.
Love you truckloads.
You've been great (:

2007-12-08T05:28:00.000-08:00

ONE MORE WEEK!
SOMEONE GIVE ME A TIME FAST FORWARD BUTTON THINGY OR SOMETHING!
Ah seriously, I want to get this next week over with.
Need to start filling up my schedule book and get appointments organized.
Ah it'll be over soon enough.
And then I can go back and see you guys again.
Awesome.
Ok that will come soon enough.
Gahh~~
Oh yeah ahahaha. Small issue I'd like to address.
YES PEOPLE, I'M VAIN.
Hahahaha.
I am incredibly vain.
I'm aware of it so there's no need to tease me about it.
Haha I can't help it.
If I walk past a mirror, I will instincively look at it and adjust my hair.
Every single time.
BECAUSE like I said, I suffer from acute vanity-itis and I'm incurable!
So don't try cure me! Haha.
Ok I'm gonna go check my hair now.
I'm outtie.
--
EDIT: Wow, lots of people have been calling me a sweet guy recently and I'm getting all shy.

2007-12-04T05:00:00.000-08:00

I still get the feeling that you're mocking me.

2007-12-01T08:28:00.001-08:00

It's 1.30 am I can't get to sleep and I'm as bored as a bored man holding a boring bag filled with boring things on a boring day during a boring festival celebrating boredom. So I thought I'd do a bit of a rant post and blurt out whatever comes to mind. I got A7X All Excess. Excellent DVD. Great stuff. Hahaha quote The Rev: "That's the biggest fucking duck I've ever seen!" Hahaha. I am so glad I'm getting rid of my history essay this coming monday. It's been niggling me in the back of my head for weeks and finally I've done it! Sweet. I wanna get Slash's biography. It's called 'Slash'. How very appropriate. You're still reading? Oh, I'm surprised. Oh yeah I got a new phone too. The LG white chocolate. Just thought it looked cute so I got it. I need a holiday right now. What am I doing awake at this time of the night? For those of you who were asking me before, I'm not gay. Readers? Do seem gay? Tell me honestly. If I do seem gay, what is it that I do that makes me appear so. Let me know so I can see if I can do anything about it. It seems to be bothering people. Time is Running out by muse is an amazing song. I've almost finished learning it on guitar. tricky fingering some of it. Wow I'm hungry. I'll have a big breakfast tomorrow morning. No I'm not emo, I just like the hair. My mousepad rocks. It rocks way harder than any mousepad I've ever come across. Either way, why do we have these labels? Goth, emo, nu rave, metal head, prep... Why do we have these? Why are some of them viewed so negatively? I mean. Goths are kind of beautiful in a way. You get some really cute looking 'emo' girls. Nu ravers are oodles of fun to hang out with. Metal heads... Well they're metal heads. Preps........ Ok never mind. Whoa my cursor just flashed. If you're still reading at this point, I'm amazed. My name is roo. How bout you? You're roo too? Oh that's cool. I've got a pool. Sit on my stool. With a spool. Of thread. From my bed. On my head. That's what I said. Tea instead? No coffee for you? need to poo? There's the loo. yes, that's true. The sky is blue. But grey sometimes. I'm making rhymes. Looking for dimes. Laughing at mimes. All the times. While adding lime. To my hokkien mee. Whee. I climb a tree. Omgosh a bee! Don't hurt me. Can't you see? There's the sea. Now I'm free. From the bee. But now there's a snake. On my cake. Which I baked. I hit it with a rake. And say "You won't take". "It". Doing my bit. Keeping fit. My lamp is lit. I'm so full of wit. Fall into a pit. It hurts so I grit. My teeth. Which chewed beef. On a coral reef. french people say seef. Instead of sieve. Which is a lie. I found in a pie. It looked me in the eye. And flew into the sky. And I asked why. It ran away.

Oh dear is that the time?
I still can't sleep.
Someone tranquilize me or something.

2007-11-26T04:41:00.000-08:00

I WANT TO WATCH THIS.

So, if anyone wants to watch it as well, let me know, then we can catch it together aye?
Looks awesome.

2007-11-21T05:37:00.000-08:00

What's yours?

2007-11-20T05:11:00.000-08:00

TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS.
LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT.
LOOK UP. AND REMEMBER THE STARS.

2007-11-19T04:55:00.000-08:00

Your boobs are fine the way they are Hayley :)

Can I stress enough how much I absolutely love Hayley Williams?
No I can't.
I love her sooo much!
She's awesome :)

2007-11-15T04:56:00.000-08:00

Ok I'm not gonna go on about how I haven't been posting.
But someone actually mentioned my lack of updates.
So I felt obliged to speak out a little more.
Righty then.
I've missed a week haven't I?
Well nothing really exciting happened.
All I can say is that I need a holiday
Fast.
Before I implode.
Gah school is slowly slowly crushing me.
Really slowly.
Like, s-l-o-w-l-y.
Like, r-e-a-l-l-y s-l-o-w-l-y.
Ouch.
Yeah basically I need a break really badly.
I need to go back to Singapore.
I need to see people.
I'm missing someone way too much.
And that ache is gonna get worse over the course of the month.
But in the end the relief will be more than worth it.
:)
Can't wait.
I've been bleeding alot lately.
Like, 3 days straight now.
No, I'm not having a period.
Now that I think of it, I realize they're all basketball induced injuries.
Hahaha.
First time I was beneath the hoop and the ball rebounded rather agressivly and hit me smack in the nose.
And it started bleeding. Ouch.
Second time. This guy name Poptart was playing really rough defense. Whacked me right in the kisser. My bottom lip was bleeding for 10 minutes. It did not taste pleasant.
Third time was a straight forward someone threw the ball in my face situation. It hit my muth again and this time my upper lip got it. Bled for another 10 minutes. Did not taste any better.
I'm getting so beat up it's not even funny.
;p
I need that holiday.

2007-11-07T04:27:00.000-08:00

Ok ok I know I missed my Halloween post and I'm feeling really guilty about it.
But I do have a good reason!
I was busy eating trick or treaters :)
Glad we got that straightened out.
Ok so I guess the biggest thing I gotta report is:
I GOT AVENEGED SEVENFOLD.
"Avenged Sevenfold" is the self-titled album of, er, Avenged Sevenfold.
Haha.
And man it kicks major ass.
Seriosuly.
My mom got it for me last Friday.
My mom is so kickass sometimes.
The cashier at HMV must've been thinking "Wtf? SHE listens to A7X"
Hahaha.
Highlights of album for me are:
1)A Little Piece of Heaven---
A badass carnival of terror-esque piece which is absolutely nuts. Loving the experimentation using different instruments and the Danny Elfman feel to it. Really. An absolutely crazy song that wouldn't sound out of place in a Tim Burton production. Awesome.

2)Gunslinger---
If you liked Seize the Day, you're probably gonna love this one. It's starts off again with instrumental experimentation, this time a banjo. This slow, soft opening then erupts into a powerful, heartfelt chorus. Really liked the vocals by Matt on this one. He's come a long way that boy has :))

3)Almost Easy---
Supported by a video which features the band playing in a hellpit, this song is, I think, awesome. The Rev does this awesome drum thing in it. I say 'awesome drum thing' cause I can't think of any other way to describe it XD. Really, listen to it.

2007-10-30T05:49:00.000-07:00

Hiding behind the shadows
I'll be waiting in the darkto drive this blade straight through your heart
I'll drag your body to the car
as blood races down my arm
I think everyone will wonder where you are (tonight)

I'll hide you in my walls
your body will never be found
I'll wear your skin as a suit
Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to
Dear diary my teen angst bullshit has a body count (count)
I believe it's 6 going on 7 now (7 now)

I've been dreaming about you
in a pool of your own blood
with your eyes gouged out
by the work of my thumbs
the scent of your insides
from under the floorboards
the perfect perfume
for settling a score.

I'll hide you in my wallsyour body will never be found
I'll wear your skin as a suit
Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to
Pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to

Ride the wings of....
Ride the wings of....
Ride the wings of....
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!
Ride the wings of pestilence!

Ride the wings of pestilence sweetie.
And don't you dare look the fuck back.

2007-10-28T05:02:00.000-07:00

Omgosh again...
I really have been falling behind on my posting haven't I?
At this rate, blogging may become a weekly thing.
Perish the thought.
Ah, we'll push such nasty thoughts aside for the moment.
So anyway.
I just had my Autumn Break.
Which was much needed.
Sadly though, it was only two days!
Omgosh two measly fucking days!
Oops.
Sorry.
Me and my dirty mouth.
But really, I was really annoyed by how stingy the school administration was.
I mean really, two days?
It takes me that long to get well rested enough FOR a holiday.
Instead, I got the rest I need, only to start school again.
Grrr.
Just wait til December folks.
I'm gonna party like a rockstar kick a little ass.
On a happier note, Avenged Sevenfold's self-titled new album, "Avenged Sevenfold" is coming out this TUESDAY!
I'm either gonna go down and get it myself, or see if mom can get it for me while I'm in school.
If she could do that, it would be really nice of her.
Must remember to drop hints.
"Oh mom, have you heard? Avenged Sevenfold is coming out this Tuesday. I really want it. It comes out this Tuesday. You're going out on Tuesday right? I really want to get it. Hey have I told you it's coming out on Tuesday?"
Think she'll get the idea if I said that?
Maybe.
Either way, you should probably have gathered that I really want to get it. :D
Ok ok ok ok.
I feel like posting a vid.
So I decided on "The Latest Plague" by From First To Last.
Really great band.
They produce a really original sound that I totally dig.
Sadly though, frontman Sonny Moore quit the badn a while back.
He will be dearly missed.
However, I WILL see what they sound like on their new album when it comes out.
Ah heck, here's "The Latest Plague".
Awesome song, awesome band.

2007-10-20T07:09:00.000-07:00

Weekends feel sooooo good!
So great it's the weekend.
The week seemed to stretch on for ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever .
Seriously.
I was so busy during that 5 days.
Just glad it's all finally over . :D
So my school had this bake sale thing going on yesterday.
And my mom made some muffins for it but I couldn't see them so I couldn't buy them :(
So instead I bought my favourite baked food.
Choc chip cookies!
I looooooove cookies.
Cookie monster XD
So they were selling 2 for 50 yen.
Which was pretty good so I bought 4.
And they were decent size too.
And they were soo good!
Really, the best cookies I've had in a while.
Cooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooookie.
*Eyes go all googly and starts sprouting blue fur*
Cookie Monster noises *Num num num numnurm rum num num nrum!*
Even better, friday was free dress day!
So we all got free dresses!
No we didn't hahaha.
We just went to school in whatever we wanted.
Friday was so relaxed :))
My fingers kinda hurt cause I've just learned...
What's it called.
Gah I'm not sure what it's called.
Takeover the Break's Over?
By Fall Out Boy?
Just got it down on guitar.
It is seriously catchy.
*Sings it in head*
Ahhahaha I need another cookie.
If you could give me one, that'd be great.
If you gave a free ug with that cookie,
That'd be even better
:D

2007-10-16T05:54:00.000-07:00

Ok not much to say.
Other than that I was sick.
Had a nasty fever.
I hit 39.
My enzymes were being killed off.
But I'm better now.
Hurrah.
I'm in a rush so this isn't a great post but oh well.
Here's Paramore's new vid.
Which is the vid for one of my favourite songs off of 'Riot!'.
Here you go.
Crushcrushcrush

I <3 you Hayley!

2007-10-14T04:49:00.000-07:00

Omgosh.
I haven't updated in absolutely ages.
Kudos to those of you reading this.
Your loyalty is appreciated lol.
Ah where to start...
I cut my hair!
Omgosh i cut my hair!
Hahaha but there isn't much difference.
They basically took about a half an inch off my existing hairstyle.
So I'm happy.
And so is my dad.
Kind of.
Also! I GOT AFI'S DVD - I HEARD A VOICE!
And it is amazing.
I love it.
But dad doesn't hahaha.
Like, he took a look at Davey and get this, he said:
"Eh, look at his hair and his tattoos! And he's so feminine! Are you getting influenced by this guy?"
And I'm all like:
"Er, no."
Lol. I don't think he's very convinced.
I keep the hair I have because I like it.
I do it for me. No one else.
And I draw on my hands cause I'm so darn bored!
Honestly, if I followed everyone who had tattoos, I'd be like a graffiti wall.
I'm like:
"You see long fringes and sleeve tattoos everywhere! Why would I be influenced by Davey?"
And my dad's like:
"You just be careful."
And I'm like:
"Ooooooooooookay."
.
I want more DECENT posters.
Please Kerrang!
Stop giving me Turisas and Trent Reznor and The Used.
Give out more Paramore, more Avenged Sevenfold!
Oh have you heard Critical Acclaim and Almost Easy btw?
They're amazing.
Go.
Go listen to them now.
You can find them on youtube.
Also, before I go, I just want to say:
I LOVE YOU!
To whoever's reading this.
I haven't told enough people how much I love them.
I'm gonna start right now.
<3

2007-10-01T05:22:00.000-07:00

Ah sorry I know I've been neglecting my blog.
Like big time.
Sorry people!
Sorry blog!
So finally here's an update.
For all those interested, I'm doing fine.
Japan's going ok.
School's going ok.
We have to wear actual uniforms now.
Haven't had a haircut yet.
Haven't told Frances how I feel.
Learnt how to play A7X' Beast and the Harlot on guitar minus the solo.
Bruise on shin is still kinda there.
Got cuts on my elbows and knuckles from a skateboarding accident.
That's basically what's happened so far in a nutshell.
I'm just blabbing away here cause I'm not thinking about what I'm writing.
Or typing rather.
So.
Maybe next time you see this, half of it will be gone.
Because maybe some of this you ain't suposed to know.
Or don't need to know.
Hm.
Maybe.
Maybe.
Maybe.
Maybe.
Maybe.
Maybe it's Maybelline.

2007-09-21T16:17:00.000-07:00

I was asked a really good question lately.
It was one of those questions i could spend day thinking about.
Am I doing this for myself?
Or am I doing it for her?
The truth is, I don't know.
Maybe I'm doing it for her because.
If i do it for myself, then maybe there's no turning back.
It's that 'what if...' question that keeping me from doing anything.
But at the same time, I'm not sure if I want to do anything.
Maybe I'm just too hopeful.
Foolishly so.
Maybe it's time to stop my dreaming.
Aah my head's stuck in the clouds.
I need gravity to work again.

2007-09-17T05:16:00.000-07:00

She's single.
I don't believe it.
She's not attached.
She hasn't got a boyfriend.
Oh wow.
Who would've thought?
She says she's "not really doing the bf thing" right now.
Hm.
I'm gonna try change her mind.
Haha.

2007-09-13T04:33:00.000-07:00

Eek.
I've been neglecting my blog.
My apologies for that.
Ehm ehm ehm.
During my absence I was basically just asking myself lots of questions.
Mostly about the future.
Some of the answers hurt.
But I stopped asking and decided to think about them some other time.
They left me too confused.
Gah.
I've got this nasty bruise on my leg from when I tried tackling someone in football.
It's disgusting.
It's black and purple and yellow and blue and brown at the same time.
Eurgh.
Oh one question I gotta ask though.
How do we define 'real'?
Mm hm.
Oh during my little soul searching session thing, I listened to this song over and over again.
It's Seize The Day by Avenged Sevenfold.
It's beautiful. Especially the solo.
I was surprised, shocked almost, when my eyes started leaking tears this one time.
You guys might not like it but I think it's beautiful.
I love this song.

2007-09-06T16:08:00.000-07:00

Hey!
Well I'm glad to say that little bout of depression is over :)
On the contrary I feel great!
Thanks to a certain Ms Tham out there.
Who's one of the greatest people ever.
Big thanks to her for cheering me up so much!
Thanks a bunch!
I love you! <3! *flykiss*
Hahahaha.
We had a long meaningful chat over msn.
And it made my life so much brighter =]
In that convo I felt a little twinge of sadness when I heard ahm.. certain things,
but overall it made me feel great.
=) =) =) =) =)
I'm not sure if she's reading this now,
but what the hell, I'll quote the convo.
"That' all I need to know"
<3

2007-09-05T04:37:00.000-07:00

Well.
Hello.
I'm feeling pretty crap now.
Because I've just done that thing I do where I just sit in my room and think.
About anything.
And naturally, I thought about Frances.
And I realised.
She is way out of my league.
What the hell am I doing?
I mean, I'll still give it a shot.
But I have a feeling I'm not gonna get anywhere.
I mean if you could just see her...
I don't stand a chance.
Way out of my league.
Way out.
And I know I shouldn't but I started comparing myself to other people.
And I realised.
I'm not sporty.
I'm not very good looking.
I'm not all that smart.
I'm not that funny.
I don't appear outgoing or outspoken.
I'm just me.
I'm just me.
Me.
Me = average.
Man, how am I ever gonna get anywhere like that?
Maybe I just shouldn't think about it.
But I can't help it.
I find myself thinking about her every 10 minutes.
And sometimes I think complete fairytale-esque, where everyon(that is, she and I) lives happily ever after.
But mostly, it's the same downward spiral.
Man.
I really wanna hug someone right now but there's no one to hug.

2007-09-01T15:31:00.000-07:00

1.WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME?
Andrew Goh Zhiwen

2.WHAT COLOUR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?
I'm in black boxers actually.

3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Right at this very moment, Avenged Sevenfold Beast and the Harlot. Synyster's solo.

4. ARE YOUR LEGS CROSSED?
Nope, I'm airating.

5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Apple Jelly :D

6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
I'd probably be pink, red or green. Oh but if crayola nade a multi-colour crayon, I'd be that one.

7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
It's kinda cool.

8. LAST PERSON YOU TAlKED TO ON THE PHONE??
Can't remember.

9. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
LEGS! I'm a sucker for beautiful legs :p

10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?
I kinda stole this but Sam is a great girl :D

11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
At the moment, kinda sleepy.

12. FAVOURITE DRINK?
Hmmm. Mocha frappe.

13. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
Bailey's Original Irish Cream!

14.What is your favourite sport?
Urmm I don't know... power-napping?

15. HAIR COLOUR?
Black, not dark brown, Just dyed it to cover my greys.

16.EYE COLOUR?
Dark-brown

17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Nope. 20/20 vision.

18. SIBLINGS?
Yes. 2 of 'em

19.FAVOURITE MONTH?
December! WOOHOO!

20.FAVOURITE FOOD?
At the moment it's sushi. Just went to this place with FANTASTIC sushi recently.

21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Transformers.

22. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR
25th December.

23. SATURDAY OR SUNDAY?
Sundays man.. SUndays rule!

24. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Nope. But I gotta really like the person to ask her out.

25. DO YOU LIKE MARMITE?
I know they say you either love it or hate it but I'm kinda in the niddle.

26. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Autumn.

27. HUGS OR KISSES?
BOTH. Giving and receiving. Here's a *muahmuah* and a *hug* to people reading this!

28. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
Chocolate!

29. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?
It'd be nice if they did.

30. Who's most LIKELY TO RESPOND?
The ones I threaten with death lol.

31. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Say what?

32. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS?
10th apartment at the moment.

33. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
I'm re-reading all my old books. I've run out of books to read.

34. DID YOU WAKE UP BEFORE YOUR ALARM WENT OFF ?
I don't have an alarm clock.

36. DO YOU MISS BIG BROTHER YET?
NO! Man, that show is trash.

37. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
Nail polish!

38. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
Utter awesomeness.

39. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
CARAMEL CARAMEL!

40. FAVOURITE CRISPS?
Kettle- Slasa and Mesquita.

41. FAVOURITE CAR?
Lamborghini man...

42. FAVOURITE FLOWER?
Deep red roses that have been stripped of their thorns :) So sweet.

43. How MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
None. Don't got no keyring.

44. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
OH! I can for one rotation but then I kinda lose it and people get concussed. Especially when I try juggling flaming chainsaws. People tend to get hurt.

45. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK
Sundayyy.....

46. RED OR WHITE WINE?
I'm gonna say white simply because I'm drinking too much red at the moment.

47. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
Well I was in school so I didn't do much.

48. DO YOU OWN A DONOR CARD?
Donor card?Heck, I've already doanted! Half my liver is inside someone else! Naw naw I'm kidding. No donor card.

49. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
*Groan* whatthehell...

50. WHAT ARE YOU DOING ONCE YOU HAVE FINISHED THIS ?
I'm gonna get some breakfast in me.

2007-08-31T03:57:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.

Today was so totally absolutely undoubtedly incredibly awesome!
Her name is Frances.
I was wrong, she's not american.
She's English.
Hahahahahaha.
Man it was great!
She sat behind me on the bus.
I couldn't help it.
When the bus stopped, I just turned around and went 'Hi there, what's your name?'
And she smiled and said 'Frances'.
And then we got a conversation going until she reached her stop!
The amazing thing was, I didn't feel nervous at all talking to her.
Everything just kinda flowed.
:D :D :D :D :D :D
jiogrjwirhhvdsnq90fieqjj0id3u109jfd!!!!!!!!
Hahahahaha.
She was alot nicer than I thought she'd be.
Because like I said, usually, before I got talking to her,
She'd just sit quietly and listen to her ipod.
But this morning she was all smiles!
Man that conversation seemed to last forever.
but in this case, forever was too short.
:D :D :D :D :D :D
Yeah yeah whatever.
I really need to calm down.
But man!
<3!
Man I'll just do this thing to calm me down.

The Blog Keeping Rules
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post there rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged and to read your blog.

Ok, here goes.
Wait, this is not for the weak-hearted or people with a family background of chronic diseases.Ok, let me start.

#1. Right random facts huh? Okay... I think I'll start with I got a scar on my forehead from when I gashed it open on the side of my grandma's bed.
#2. I'm really fussy about where I leave my stuff. I go by the 'organised chaos' system.
#3. I used to, I repeat USED TO listen to Ricky Martin and Britney Spears. Lol.
#4. I've skipped class a total of three times.
#5. I'm a sucker for a beautiful pair of legs.
#6. Out of the seven deadlies, my most potent sin is envy. And I hate it.
#7. When I was young, I had one of those pudding-bowl haircuts or whatever you call it.
#8. I used to be really really into the goth scene. This was due to this alter-ego I named Jack.
Those days have passed now thank goodness.

And the 8 humans that are destined to save the world with this tag are:
Man I don't know. Whoever I pick.

2007-08-29T05:44:00.000-07:00

Omg today was heavenly!
You know how I said bus journeys were the highlight of my day?
Today it got better!
Ok remember that girl I was talking about?
The one with gorgeous legs?
Man this morning we were giving each other some major eyes!
Haha and it felt incredible.
Especially when our eyes met and she kinda turned away and smiled.
It was adorable.
And she's got a really nice smile.
Like, when I first saw her, she seemed kinda cold.
Not like temperature but yoou know what I mean.
But now that she's smiled...
Man!
Not even sure what I feel right now haha!
Wow.
Haha you know what?
I'm just gonna go calm myself down now.
I'm going all hyper thinking about this morning.
Haha.
I so need to find out her name.
I'll catch you guys tomorow.
Toodles.
<3!

2007-08-24T19:00:00.000-07:00

Ok so I said I'm gonna go all deco on my room right?

Well I have.

Spent the whole of last night with some white-tac (which ou can't find in Japan!),

And a pile of Kerrang! posters.

I think it needs a bit of tweaking, but I'm happy with the outcome.

Here, have a look.

My room before decoration...

And my room after decoration!

My lil' Hayley corner! Sigh... <3!>

My rock out area complete with inspirational guitarist posters lol.

Kerrang! gives so many MCR posters, I just had to have an MCR section.

My AFI area with some amazing shots of Davey!

Yeah okay so that's my room now.

And I feel so much more comfortable in it.

I'll catch you guys later.

I'm out.

2007-08-23T04:38:00.000-07:00

okay.
So I had my first day of school today.
And it went okay.
Went alot better than I expected.
ALOT better.
Due to my timidness, I only managed to make about 7 friends today.
Definitely hope to make loads more.
They seem really nice :)
Okay I'll go through a brief run through of the teachers I've met so far.
Mr McGuire (Bio): He's like my form teacher. Funny, nice, relaxed guy as far as I can tell.
Mrs Coppings (History): Very nice person.
Mr Webbing (Art): Nice guy, slightly boring, slightly weird.
Mrs Gu (Japanese): Kindly old lady, but strict.
Mr Wall (English): Fun guy, a little bit weird but fun.
Mr Rash (Maths): This guy was REALLY weird. He lkes philosophy and for the whole lesson he was all like 'Don't let anyone steal your truth!' And we were like, 'Um, yeah ok.'
So those are the teachers so far.
Highlight of the day: BUS JOURNEY TO AND FROM SCHOOL.
You see, the bus picks up girls from the affiliated girls school.
So this morning, there I am sitting on the bus feeling all nervous,
And the bus stops.
And this American girl gets on board and I'm like, 'Omg. Okay don't stare don't stare don't stare.'
She was HOT.
Really short skirt, medium brown hair which was just below shoulder length.
First two buttons undone, knot tied at bottom of shirt.
She had really nice legs too... Real nice.
Drool.... LOL. Haha no drooling.
But yeah you get the picture ;)

2007-08-22T05:46:00.000-07:00

Omg school tomorrow.
I'm petrified.
Omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg .
I'm so scared.